Discover Twilight

chapter xxxix

After the little showdown, I ask Edward and Jake to call me when she's changed, telling them I'd be back tomorrow to see the baby. How did my life get this complicated? I turn into a big ass dog, my brother's best friend has an uncontrollable obsessive love for me, my cousin just had a baby not even 1 month after she got pregnant by a vampire, and now my cousin is turning into a vampire at this very moment. This can't be real, it has to be a nightmare or something someone fabricated like the Harry Potter books but not as good. Embry shuffles beside me, hitting his shoulder on mine, breaking my train of thought, "Hey. I've missed you."

I jump on his back, making him carry me back to my house, "I missed you too but with all that was going on, I really needed to be away. Not to mention what happened right before I learned about Bella's pregnancy." I think back to that day, giving him the play by play. 

"Called it! That's why Paul's been extra grouchy lately, his Imprint ran away from him. What are you going to do about that whole thing?" Embry yelled, getting the attention of some of the Pack near us. 

"GO TO MY HOUSE AND WE'LL TALK THERE. DO YOU WANNA SPEND THE NIGHT?" He nods starting to cheat toward my house away from everyone else, who's going to Sam and Emily's. 

Embry throws me onto my couch, still covered in the blankets from the other week and my book, putting both of our shoes in the bin by the front door, "Okay, let's hear it Kota. What are you thinking?" 

What am I thinking? Well at the moment I'm hungry but in regards to feelings and emotions I'm angry slash relieved about everything that went down with Bella, I'm pissed at Sam for wanting to kill Bella because of the baby, confused about Paul because I'm terrified of commitment. "Well that's it. That's why it's taken you this long to even give him a shot, you're scared of commitment and this is a "to the day we die" kind of commitment, but it's apparent that you two are perfect together, anyone with eyes can see it," Embry points out, listening to my thoughts rather than have me explain knowing that he'll get the truest answer from my thoughts. 

"Whatever you say, okay then... but that's not a fear you just get over, is it?" I ask, playing with the ends of the blanket. 

"The only way to get over that fear... is to take the risk and trust your judgement," Embry suggests, quickly moving on to something that didn't require our emotional vulnerabilities which meant putting a DVD in and eating. 

Two Days Later

New Message: Jake
She's awake. Come over right now!

"Bye! I'll be back later!" I yelled, running out of Sam's house giving them no explanation as to why I sprung off the kitchen table and sprinted outside. 

To Hell with the speed limit, I floor it making it to the Cullen's in less than 2 minutes when it would normally take about 6. I ran into the house, finding the entire Cullen coven, including little Renesmee, congregating in the second floor family room with the exception of Edward and Bella. Jacob was holding her when I came into the room but the 3 day year old, who looks like she's a few months old, sees me and starts grabbing at me. 

"Awww look at my big girl. How're you today, Ness?" I coo, taking her from Jake. 

Ness reaches her hand up to Jake's face because like the rest of her gifted her family, her powers don't work on me for whatever reason and she learned as much which the first two tries, "She says she's happy that Mommy is awake and that Aunty Kody is back."