Friday. But not any friday. I-have-to-go-to-a-party friday. Let me explain why I hate parties. First of all, four parties I attended were with the wrong group of friends. I had Jen and Gabe, but they always found more people they knew and and we would always end up in a group of people I don't like, but I never said anything because they were still Jen and Gabe's friends so I didn't want to hurt them.
Second of all, I don't like drinking, I never got drunk so I was always afraid that if I drank too much, I would end up drunk with a group of people I don't trust.
Third could be that I have claustrophobia and I don't do well in a crowded room, I also have migraines that would appear from the smoke I was inhaling and too loud music.
I tried alcohol and cigarettes long time ago, I would say that I was in fifth grade. Jen, Gabe and I were at the playground behind the school and there was a group of people smoking, they were maybe in the seventh grade. They asked us if we wanted to try and we did. I was the only one who didn't cough the first time I tried it, it felt natural somehow, I knew how to inhale the smoke in my lungs, maybe a bit too well because I could feel it, I could feel it going to my lungs and that's why I never liked cigarettes. They reminded me too much that they were doing something wrong. I never smoked an entire cigarette, I would get too dizzy.
So yeah, I just showered and I was in my robe blow-drying my hair, after it was completely dry I took my straightener and straightened the upper half of my hair while curling the other half. I was surprised because that was actually the first time I managed to curl my hair with my straightener, I would always try but fail and the curling iron was just too much work. Seeing my hair made me happy, I liked the way it looked and a 'good hair' day is always a good sign. Right? I did my makeup stronger tonight. I did a brown smokey eye with a gold shimmer on my inner corner, I did my brows which I don't usually do, I finished it up with a light brown lip. I was good at doing makeup. I stopped doing 'heavy' makeup when I found out that I was actually good at it because I started feeling self conscious. That was something that always scared me, when I start loving something I'm doing and am good at, I stop doing it. Like for example, I haven't touched my piano in over two years. I miss it, all though it doesn't matter now since I don't have one in my apartment. The white one from our living room was too big to bring here and even if it weren't I probably wouldn't want it. I stared at myself in the mirror and knowing I look good I left the bathroom to get dressed. Jen told me to wear the brown-beige dress I had. It was tight on the upper part of my body to my waist then became floaty till it reached a little bit above my knee. I put on my heels and checked my phone. When I saw that no one sent anything I decided to text Tay.
me: hey, carpooling with me to the party? please say yes, please say yes..
Tay <3: sorry already there, Noah and Ryan picked me up. shit what do I do now??
me: it's okay, see you there God Madison, possessed much?
Tay <3: can't wait :) oh, I guess not. I said with a smile, with a wide wide smile.
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Okay, this is it. I was standing with Tessa in front of the party house. Breath in, breath out Madison.
"you ready?" I heard Tessa's voice.
No. "yeah" No. I answered.
We walked in and as soon as I stepped in, the smoke and the smell from the alcohol hit me hard. I got used to it pretty quickly so I started looking for familiar faces.
"I'm gonna go look for Robby. You okay there?" Tessa asked and I just wanted her to have some fun so I smiled.
"Go get your man Tess" she smiled and in a blink of an eye, she was gone.
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RomanceMadison is a teenage girl with a body that society says isn't perfect, her mother agreeing. She's insecure, hurt, lost and just wants to find that one thing, her thing, that will bring her happiness. She knows she's not gonna find it where she is no...