Cruel Summer

☀️ First Shot ☀️

Terry

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Christmas vacation is over and everything is back to normal except for me na hindi pa prepared sa mga gawain sa school. Before kasi kami magbakasyon ay nag-iwan ng sobrang daming tasks ang school at isa sa mga ito ay ang chapters 1-3 namin.

Mabuti na lang at cooperative naman ang groupmates ko at kung hindi, wala nang mangyayari sa research namin. To be honest it's not easy to do this thing kaya kailangan talagang magkaroon ng maayos na communication sa bawat members. I can say that I am lucky to have them.

"Hey, are you alright?" Rena's voice broke my reverie. "You seemed to preoccupied today? Do you wanna gome home na ba kasi kanina pa ako nagsasalita but you're just there staring at me with your blank face."

"I'm so sorry. Promise, babawi ako sa 'yo." I said.

"Sabi mo 'yan ha. P'wede mo naman ako ilibre ng ticket sa concert ni Louis, alam mo naman how I'm dying to see them back again."

"As a band? 'Di ba disbanded na sila."

"Hey, stop! No, they're not. Hiatus lang nila, they'll come back maybe after two more years. Who knows."

"Fine, let me check kung wala kaming pasok sa date na 'yon and if kaya ng budget ko. Mga gastusin mo kasi hindi naman budget friendly. Look at us now, nandito nanaman eating samgyup."

"Ako ba ang nag-invite? I can't say no if it's food 'no. Sayang ang blessings sabi nga nila. So we always have to say yes." Rena said and laughed on her own quote.

Everytime na kasama ko siya it's like I forgot that I'm dealing with serious problems in life. My problems mostly is about my family. I'm living with my mom and my grandma. We used to be happy happy before not until nagkaroon ng issues between my father's family and mom's family. Now everything's empty. I feel so empty kapag kasama ko sila.

Looking at out family photo. Paano namin nagawang ngumiti behind all those problems going on. Talagang you always need to know the story behind each photos you see.

It all started summer of 2017. When my father decided to cut his communications from us then months later he went back because he couldn't survive without seeing me. Mom gave him a chance pero sinayang niya. That's when my mom's siblings came in to the picture at mas lalong nagkagulo na ang lahat. I can no longer enjoy summer because of it.

Dahil tuwing summer vacation, mandatory na pumunta kaming lahat sa lugar ng panganay na anak ng grandparents ko for us to bond. Funny thing here, hindi naman gano'n ang nangyayari. The season will always end na napapagalitan si mommy and then kapag hindi pa sila nakuntento ay sa akin na ibabagsak lahat ng galit nila.

Imagine being an adult and picking up a fight sa bata. That's shitty, I know. Pero wala silang narinig sa akin. Kahit na sobrang sama na ng loob ko. All I do is to listen to each words they're saying at tinatandaan lang 'yon.

Kasi who am I to talk? Bata lang naman ako sa paningin nila. Being the youngest in both sides of my family, sucks! Kasi they won't listen. Ang alam lang nila is to give you a command. Instructions that are vague. Nakakasawa lang na gawin lahat pero in the end, ikaw pa rin ang masama.