curves ⇥ l.h au

thirty-two

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the sound of a loud knock rumbled through the house, bella prying her eyes from one of the numerous of spongebob episodes she had watched.

her feet dragged across the carpet, time seeming to slow down as she pulled the door open to reveal a boy with bloodshot eyes.

no words were (surprisingly) exchanged as luke let himself in, sitting on the couch where bella then joined him.

'so i guess i should say im sorry.' luke sighed as he rubbed his sore nose with his sleeve.

a confused look took over bella's features, her mind racing with negative possibilities. the worst one fortunately did not come true, but it was very close in proximity to it.

'im so stupid' he mumbled, his fingers fidgeting all over.

'wh-what?' her hands began to shake.

'i- im sorry i-i have this for yo-you' he thrusted a piece of crumpled paper in her direction before standing up.

'im so sorry, i'm so sorry.' he kept murmuring as he opened the front door, looking back to give her a look of pity; one thing she wished she would never see from him.

she even didn't get a hug, nor a simple goodbye.

'dear bella,' it read.

'im sorry i ran out just like i did (or i dunno i could be sitting next to you right now).

i'm sorry for not treating you right.

i'm just sorry, okay?

please don't be hard on yourself. this is my fault.

oh my god i can't stop crying and i feel so guilty.

i cheated bell.

im so sorry.

i just needed something.

it's not your fault, i swear.

god, im so fucking stupid.

i can't even imagine how much you hate me right now, bell, i really can't.

i promised not to hurt you but i did.

and the worse part is i love you.

i love you so much it hurts.

and this is the worst way possible of saying (or writing) it.

i was too afraid of you not getting hurt that i ended up hurting you anyways.

im so sorry.

i really do love you,

shit head xx.'

bella didn't even realize she was crying.

she should have expected this, right?

more tears rolled down her cheeks and plopped onto the paper in her hands.

the more her eyes scanned over the words, the more she got this feeling; a feeling she was all too familiar with.

emptiness.

but there was one thought she instantly skipped over:

she loved him too.

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okAY so yeah

i feel like crap (sick day ay)

so i was like 'leTs bE eVIL'

and this chapter happened so..

blah blaH ily & bye

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