Shattered

Chapter 20

The movers were slowly packing up mine and Leo's stuff into the moving truck, this week pass by so fast that it felt like I was loosing time and soon I'll be suffocated by the company of Nathan. I am so stupid for forgiving him right away, god I hate that this happens all the time where forgiveness would go against me. Shouldn't happiness make you excited? Why was is the feeling of conflicted arising in me?

This whole week has been a lot for me just thinking of the choice I've made, is this the right thing or the wrong thing to do? Why did my life have to turn out this way?

My house is going to still be here, luckily I was able to convince Nathan that I wasn't going to sell it because it contained a lot of good memories. He insisted that the pictures in the frame should be brought to the house- well our house to be put up.

Me and Leo has camera's speculating around us ever since we arrived in front of Nathan's work building, everyone was dying to find out what was going on and what I was doing back after everything that occurred in the past.

"Alina, are you ready to go?" Nathan asks taking me out of my thoughts, he took off work today to help us move. Him and Leo were having fun moving boxes, Leo always wanted to be like the older men. My little tough man...

"Uh, yeah, I guess I am."

"What are you thinking about?" He asks approaching me and placing his hands on both sides of my hips.

"Just thinking of Leo's childhood in this house, there are memories here that I'll miss. Like on the wall near the kitch I would always mark his height every year." I say reminding myself of every time I did that.

"We'll be able to do that, you could do it on any wall when we get to the house, we'll start fresh. Nothing has to change." He says kissing the top of my head.

"But Nathan... everything is changing." It's true, believe it or not, even if we are just moving and resuming our lives. It feels like a lot is changing, we are now going to have to accommodate to his living style. "You need to understand that me and Leo are leaving behind everything here for you."

"I do know that and I am so thankful for it, please come on, just try it out and if not I'll relocate?" Part of me knew that he really wanted this and he would actually relocate if it meant getting to be with me. I couldn't let him give up the empire he built just because of my slight inconvenience. He worked hard, late nights long before and for that I understood and respected him for that. His will to keep fighting through problems was inspiring.

"I don't want you to do that... it's okay, I guess I just have to get used to it. I'll just take it day by day," he smiles.

"I love you." He tells me then brushes his lips softly against mine.

"Okay, lets go now, we're all packed." I say brushing my hands on my pants to straighten myself out.

We walked outside where Leo was on the driveway drawing with his chalk on the driveway with Ben, he drew the characters from monster inc which was so adorable. He was very talented for a child at his age, also intelligent, just thinking about the future when I see him will be so different. It excites me that he will grow up and I'd get to be proud of the successful man that we raised but the thought of him not being young anymore is sad.

"What are you guys up to?" I asked with Nathan's hand around my waist.

"Me and Mr. Ben are drawing mommy! Look at Mike and Sulley," he says pointing the the artwork of his, with a huge smile on his face.

"I love it baby! It's so good," this already gave me an idea of what to get him for a surprise. Since he enjoys drawing and colouring maybe he'd like some crayons or art supplies. "Are you ready to go now?"