When I close my eyes it's all dark, and that's when I'm afraid the most ,I had nightmares ever since the incident, often I don't dream images , it's only dark and I hear cries and shouts , it gets too loud and that's when I wake up.It's 5 AM and I wake up breathing heavily and sweating. At times like this I take pills which calms me down , when it started to get worse , mom and I went to see a psychiatrist, he said it's a trauma experience but thankfully it's not developed to a PTSD.
But I fight it by going to the hospital and being there for people who need support and I love what I do there , that's how I cope, but sometimes I get these nightmares and that means that I still lose some fights.
I get out of bed and open the blue box , and read one of the letters that the unknown person sent to me last year , I often read them and feel okay.
Hi,
Everyone likes dreams , dreams are roads to what we love.
But why when I dream about something I love , it turns out to be a nightmare?
It happens often , but I can't accept that what I love can ever harm me, so why?
I know it caused me pain but that's what happens when we love right?
But why all I can think about is it's pain?
It's hard to let go of it .
But I'm trying .
I want to think about it as a nice dream to have a good night sleep.
I'm sorry again , I hope you don't go through nightmares , just dreams , nice ones.Sincerely , J
I take deep breaths , return the letter and the box and went to take a warm shower .
I finished and changed into my clothes , applied some lipgloss and let my long hair down , I go downstairs I find mom , making breakfast ."Morning mom " I say tiredly.
"Good-morning bella " mom says without looking at me as she places the plate In front of me.
"Did you like yesterday's dinner?"
"Yes , it was a nice dish yesterday , and the cheese was a nice touch " she says taking a seat .
"What's wrong you don't seem good" mom says worriedly.
"I didn't get enough sleep yesterday" I sigh.
"Are you okay? Do you have your pills?"
"Yeah I do don't worry I'm okay " I say trying to reassure her.
"how about i drive you today? "
"No mum it's okay I called Tyler to pick me up " I say as there was car honking outside and Tyler's voice booming waking up the whole neighborhood.
"And That's my cue " I say , I get up and hug mom then leave.
I walk towards Tyler's car and got in .
" Missed me ?" He says.
I took a while looking at him , he was wearing blue shirt and black jeans , that complimented his golden hair ."Hmm let me think "
"Nope Not even a little bit " I say putting on the seatbelt.
"Cruel bells , way to go to break my heart" he chuckles as he drives off.
"So , why can't you drive today?" Tyler says turning on the heater.
"Wanted to make use of you as my personal Chauffeur " I tease.
"Very funny " He says rolling his eyes .
Tyler doesn't know about the nightmares , I never did tell him nor Lilly , I kept it to myself , I always did , I don't want to burden them with such things when i can fight it by myself.
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