Jungkook smiled as he was sitting on a couch surrounded by people and loud music with the party girl making some silly dance moves in front of him.
It was SaeRi's birthday and the only night he had left his room after he had quit his job, left your house and you behind.
He had many things to think about and that was one of the reasons he took time to himself and pushed everyone out of his life, keeping his emotions to himself which had started a war. Past and present were torturing him. He couldn't help but remember the feelings of grief and pain from when he had lost his mother. How could he ever forget how pitiful he had felt without her and how lonely and abandoned? How could he forget how his tears used to wet his pillow as he kept missing her every day yet she could never come back to him?
He could never see her smile at him again. He could never feel her touch upon his head as she was to tell him how proud she was for having such a good son. A phrase that as time went by, grew a feeling of frustration within Jungkook. What was the point of being good, if she no longer was around to be proud of him? Such had been the thoughts that had started the formation of his arrogant personality.
A personality that had changed so much after he met you and he hadn't even taken notice of when and how.
His feelings for you had not changed, however, he was in a dilemma even though he knew that all this wasn't your fault. He wasn't blaming you yet it was hard for him to allow himself to love you because in a way he felt as if he was betraying his mother. He felt guilty but he couldn't just pause his feelings and that had been very harsh on him.
He was smiling right this instant mostly because he didn't want to ruin his best friend's mood but inside he just wanted to shove himself into a black hole till he was to go numb.
Why did it have to be like this? Why do you have to be the daughter of that man, of all people? Why was it so hard to just throw you out even though he so much didn't even want that to happen? He was such a mess and he was incredibly sorry too because he knew that with each day that passed, he was just hurting you more.
Just the thought of it was painful to him because all he wanted was to protect you. Because whenever he had seen you sad, he had felt it too and couldn't help but want to be someone that would be there to shelter you, whenever you would let your strong persona slide down. Yet here he was, doing all the things he said we would never do. He felt disappointed in himself.
"Jungkook" SaeRi called him as she sat beside him and he snapped out of his trail of thoughts which he had fallen into without noticing it.
"What's wrong? You aren't feeling well?" She asked him as she leaned near his ear so he could hear her over the loud music and he smiled at her as he gave her an excuse that he was just tired and sleepless from work, even though it was partially true.
"Come with me." She grabbed him by his hand and pulled him away and upstairs, heading to her room as the party was taking place at her house.
Once inside her room, she fixed her beautiful dress that had gotten wrinkled as they squeezed between people to get to the stairs, then she looked at him and crossed her arms above her chest.
"Why are you lying to me? I already know that you aren't working anymore. Your father told me so." She called him out on his excuse and Jungkook's eyes widened for a moment then he got mad that his father was getting involved with his life. What right did he have to say anything to anyone about him?
"I can't live at my own house without someone talking about me behind my back, now can I?!" He said in a visibly irritated mood that got SaeRi by surprise.
"It's not like that and besides it was just me whom he talked to. I can't see how is that something to be mad at. He is just worried for you Jungkook. That's what parents do, they always want the best for their children." She tried to defend Mr Jeon as she had sympathised with the man because she too was worried about Jungkook.
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An Arrogant Beggar // Jungkook FF
Fanfiction"In prosperity, our friends know us, in adversity, we know our friends." Jeon Jungkook. A boy who had it all in his life is about to learn what it means to feed yourself and to survive without the warm shoulders of your rich family having your back...
