I'm in too deep

Chapter 16: made for

Kyara's pov:
I wake up the next morning with a hangover from last night. The wine was not a good idea. But that's not new for me since i arrived here. Yesterday when i was making my way back to the cabin. Intoxicated from the alcohol and zach. I realized i how much freedom i have over here. I need to take my opurtunities, yes ofcourse. But i can also live life here. I mean i can explore so much and have so much fun, i didn't even think about it before last night. I can't just grow musically but also as a person. And when that clicked I realized I don't know much about myself. I mean I know stuff like I love music and would love to make my pasion my work or that I have a huge love for adventure. And the extremely basic stuff like my birthday is July 28th. But what makes me feel alive? What can I feel? How can I feel? How powerful can I be? What is stuff that really makes me feel most like me. I don't know. That's what I realized last night. I've been living like this perfect girl for so long I don't have much live experience that isn't school or music related. I've never had a boyfriend before Scott so love-wise I haven't seen much either. I only know so little. So what better way to learn than to explore? Then I get pulled out of my thoughts by Jamilia calling me. "Kyara! You coming?"  We just had breakfast and now we have a roleplay exercise to get better in writting from different perspectives. As we arrive we get told to sit in a circle and listen to what we have to do. We have to pick a significant personalitytrait and built a song in the perspective of the person that has a backstory that we pick out of a hat. I get a person that lives for excitement and wants nothing more than freedom. Someone who craves freedom, adventure and excitement. Well that shouldn't be to difficult.
I start writing and before I know it I have the first ideas for lyrics are on my paper.
I have an idea to write from the perspective of a girl in a controlling relationship and then she meets someone that completely sets her on fire. Who let's her be free and explore herself. Someone who instead of controlling her wants to grow along side her. And that when the girl changes her path she is much more herself and a lot happier. The girl sounds so brave, but I also feel bad for her. And in a way, a weird way, I also feel really connected to her. But that's probably just bc I wrote her. Right?

🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋
Hey guys! It took me a lil to update srry. I didn't have much inspo for this chapter. It's kinda boring bc of that. Next chapter will be a lot more interesting I promise. Hope you're save and sound! Love, saar🦋