My Best Friend's Brother || j.jk

-18-

-Few Days Later-

As expected, I haven't been seeing much of Jae after school. Yes, at school I'd see her but that's about it. She always tells me about Jimin, and his skills and what they do. Never really going into detail on the acts they perform together, not that I wanted to know about it anyways. But, I can literally care less about it, I don't care about the things he does. I think she is just trying to brag that she gets dick because she thinks that I don't. 

Haha, jokes on her. 

“Yup.” I nod, “But like.. he is so damn.. like.. skilled, you know?” she asks as we eat our lunch. “I bet.” I mumble as I push around my food. “I wish we could talk about your sex life but I know you don't have one.” I just stare at my rice, bitch. “Because if you had one.. you'd tell me right?” she asks. Your brother. "But I know in my heart that you don't." She says so seriously.

"And I know you're not the type to sleep around or even just give it up to the first guy you lay in bed with." Where is she going with this? "I mean, I'm not one to judge but if you did that I would be really surprised.. because, you know, you're just kinda a good girl." And she's not?! She always has been, up until now. Is being a good girl supposed to be an insult?

"Like, you just don't give me that like.. 'I just want sex' vibe." She continues. "You're not like a slut or anything, I know that. You also don't give me that vibe, you're like.. too average looking to be like that." My eyebrows knit, like I've said before about my appearance, I'm a pretty basic Korean looking girl. But the fact that she's saying it like this, just insults me. 

"What?" I look up at her, clearly showing her that I'm ticked off. "I mean, I didn't mean it like you're ugly or anything. I meant that you don't give me slut vibes." My eyebrows knit even tighter together, but she's not even looking at me. "Just because a girl is really pretty, you think she's a slut?" I ask her. "No, not necessarily. I think you heard me incorrectly." 

"No, I think I heard you pretty clear." I tell her, it's like she's not even listening to me when she laughs and continues. "No, look. There are just certain girls that give straight up slut vibes and you don't.", "Are you mixing up looking like a 'slut' with confidence?" She lets out a breath, "No, there are just girls that everyone just knows she has sex with everyone." 

My head twitches a bit, "Okay, and? So what if a girl has sex with a lot of people? Like you told me, it's their body." Her nose crunches, "That is just so slutty, she has no respect for herself if she just gives herself up like that." I lick my lips, "But it's okay for guys to do that? Guys can do it, and be fine but if girls do it they're sluts?" I ask. 

"I mean yeah, I don't get why you don't see it that way. I think it's pretty disgusting if a girl does that." I laugh, "That is so toxic of you to say that, I don't think that it should matter. It shouldn't matter the gender of the person, if you think it makes a girl a slut to do that.. it makes a boy a slut to do that too." And she finally looks at me, she knows who I'm talking about.

"A guy gets props about having sex with all these girls and is considered a player, he gets praise. But when a girl does it, it's disgusting. I think if it's disgusting for a girl, it's disgusting for a guy. It should be equal amongst the genders, no one gender is more superior than the other." I tell her, she stares at me for a second then shrugs, so I look back down at my food.

I give up, fuck!

"I guess.. it doesn't matter too much because honestly it's like, it's your body not mine. It's not like I can tell you not to or anything." Shut up, shut up. "I just don't see you doing that though, like personally. I don't think you would but who knows." She keeps going on about it, clearly she's having doubts about it. She obviously thinks that I would and wouldn't tell her.