Soukoku One - Shots

don't shut me out

"You deserve so much better than me"

"Stop lying.

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"Your not in love with me anymore...are you?" It was a whisper through the apartment. The brunette's head shot up at the weak voice. He walked from the kitchen to the living room wrapping his arms around the smaller male protectively. 

"Why would you say something like that chibi?"  He asked brushing hair from the gingers eyes and watching as tears ran down his face. Wiping them away one by one. 

The ginger was trembling and sobbing, he held his knees close to his chest as he tried to remain silent. "I-I wish you were never in love...with me." He said, unable to look up. 

"Oh Chibi. I have always loved you and I always will. You mean ever-" The brunette tried speaking with the quivering man. 

"You deserve so much b-better than me. I was just so caught up in the happiness, and I-I was flooded with joy. I'm so sorry that I dragged y-you on with me for so damn long." He said with his shaky breath. He pulled his legs closer to his chest and flopped his head down crying on his sweatpants. "I'm sorry Dazai." 

"Stop lying. If anything,you deserve more than me. It's ok to be happy, I was overjoyed too. Never say that you don't wish for me to love you...Please Chuuya I love you more than anything. I can't lose you too." Dazai said shaking the ginger and making him look at him. His sapphire eyes were puffy and desperate. "Chuuya what made you think I don't love you anymore?" 

Chuuya looked to the side, in what seemed like embarrassment. "You just seem so anger these days, and your always off flirting with women. So I just....I just thought I wasn't enough anymore. I-I thought that you didn't want to be with me anymore. But when I thought about it, I just got so...so...are you going to leave me? Please don't leave me again, Dazai. I'm sorry." Chuuya tried explaining looking up at Dazai and holding onto his shirt as he started crying again. His eyes were wide and his lips trembled as he looked up grasping the striped shirt like a lifeline. 

"Stop apologizing Chuuya. I'm never going to leave you okay. You gave me something to live for, hell your the only reason I'still alive." Dazai said staring into the other's eyes.  "You are my whole world, please don't crumble now. I love you."  He rubbed the ginger's back and squeezed on his shoulders. "I'm sorry that I've seemed angry lately. There is just some things going on at work lately." Chuuya's widened his eyes as he realized the day coming soon. The anniversary of Odasaku's death. Chuuya had forgotten. It was like this last year too. Around the time the two off the started dating, Dazai starting disappearing and eventually had a breakdown in front of Chuuya. 

"I'm Sorry. I forgot, I was selfish and I didn't realize. Please don't lie to me about something like this." Chuuya cupped the others cheek. 

"Look at us." Dazai chuckled slightly. "Two emotional idiots." He smiled down at the smaller male. 

"I love you." Chuuya said resting his head on the other's chest, feeling the drain of crying and holding back tears and sobs.

"Your so tiny compared to me." Dazai smiled and kiss the gingers head. "I love you too chibi."

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word count- 568-ish

I know its really short. I'm quite sorry for that. 

Sorry for any spelling or grammar mistakes. Please let me know your thoughts or opinions.