C U R I O S I T Y|| Byler

Rejection

"Will I-" he was now shedding tears with me
I continued to look up at him the tears still falling from my eyes
He inched himself closer to me as I backed into the wall
"That's not the only reason I was jealous" he whispered
He gripped my face and pressed his lips against mine it felt like it was something I craved but would never admit it was passionate his lips were as soft and plump as I'd remembered my hands in his hair as his were around my waist I had felt myself hit the wall but right now I didn't care It was like I was underwater but I didn't feel the need to come up for air It was dark but I didn't need to see him when I could feel him
That's when he backed away
"I'm sorry I can't do this" he said frantically
"How many times does this take how many times are you gonna hurt me just to realize your only into El" I asked I tried not to show I was hurt but I'm pretty sure it was obvious
"I'm sorry Will you don't deserve this"
I nodded and walked towards the door
"Are you ok?" He asked
I turned around before twisting open the door
"I'm fine like always"
I walked out of the room
Josh and El giggled back and forth on the couch
I wasn't angry at Mike I was just feeling kinda hurt hmm that's not the word rejected I was feeling rejected
He doesn't really like me like I do him it was just the heat of the moment
I plopped down on the couch next to Josh
"You okay?" El asked
"Yeah I'm fine thanks for asking"
I mean I can't be mad at El she's too sweet but her boyfriend on the other hand...

Mike's Pov
I stood in Will's dark room
I clenched my hair in my hands wanting to rip it out
I don't know why it was so hard to choose who I liked
It was like I was holding onto something that was no longer there but I don't know what it was
I kept hurting Will without realizing it
Every time I ditched him to hang
With El the times I told him to grow up the times that I unintentionally ignored him for weeks on end
And I never thought about the fact that he barely had a chance to grow up and experience things like I did especially dealing with his past trauma
I walked out of the room and sat down on the ground beside El I was jealous she was talking to Josh and laughing at his stupid jokes
She's mine-
I guess I was beginning to realize something
She doesn't belong to me she isn't an object but I've been treating her like one
"Mike" she asked
"Oh uh yeah"I responded
"He rides a bike too just like you" she said excitedly
I smiled at her
"That's really cool"I smiled at the both of them
But why was I jealous of El and Will
I'm not...
I can't be...
Am I...?
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