omega . knj x bts

( i ) . a secret

🧸 ₊˚ namjoon ˊ˗

hi, do you want to know a secret? i am actually an omega, supposedly without a pack since only my 'alpha' side is what they know about.

sure, i'm the leader of bts and the pack alpha and leader, or so they thought, but actually, i'm just a worthless omega.

i try not to degrade myself often, but i always fail miserably, i just don't feel like the group accepts me, alpha or not.

even if i am a fake alpha, i'm not respected as much as yoongi is, who aspires to be the pack leader.

i don't even know how i managed to convince the pack for me to be the pack leader, probably because i'm a good leader in bts anyways.

to conclude what i'm trying to say, i don't think my pack members will accept me, so i stay as a disguise with my "alpha side." 

my pack consists of six other guys, jungkook, the baby alpha, who is not hormonally developed but thinks of himself as a suitable pack alpha which is rather adorable.

 hoseok, an alpha that has the hots for yoongi and is totally obsessed with him, and he also seems to hate me a lot for some reason but at least he talks to me.

 yoongi is the other alpha who also hates me, totally ignores my existence, unless it's to make fun of me. we used to not be like that but people change,  i guess.

 and me as the 'fake alpha' of course i didn't tell them that.

the rest, who is taehyung, a nice but occasionally moody and odd beta who aspires to be a lot of things, but as he says "i ended up as a k-pop idol as my choice" that guy sure daydreams a lot.

 jimin, a really nice beta, no joke, he is like the nicest person i have ever met. he forgives in a second, regardless of the mistake, unless it hurts someone else in the process, but he is really fragile and his feelings get hurt a lot, because of this, he can't seem to be mad at the person, especially to those who he is soft for, he ends up forgiving them quick as a blink. that is why jimin is my favorite.

 last but certainly not least, seokjin, a beta with motherly instincts, he really takes care of the pack and group, he can sure be a little over the top and extra but that's what makes him unique.

the dream i had my whole life was to become an alpha, but they were crushed once i presented.

 i guess i'm living that dream right now. 

it's not easy though, you see, my pack is really nosy, they ask about everything which can be annoying, but that's why i love them, i guess. 

i just don't want to be my real self around them.

the alphas of my group have been continuously talking about how much they want an omega in their pack, i pretend to go along with them, reluctantly pretending to be fantasizing about what it's like to be inside an omega, but in my mind, i feel uncomfortable about how they speak about omegas.

they say when they find an omega, they'll be using him for their ruts. 

yes, him, they're all strictly gay.

so am i.

back on track, but you know how this made me feel, worthless. 

what they don't know is who they were looking for was right in front of them.

right under their nose.

 i really don't want to reveal who i really am, i'm scared they will hate me even more.