Y/n pov
I walked up the steps and took a deep breath looking up at the sign that said "Clinic" and just stood there for a minute trying to decide if I really wanna do this, I put my hand on my flat stomach as fresh hot tears rolled down my face "I can't" I walked right back down the steps and took off to my car,
As much as I despise my unborn child father that doesn't mean I have to get rid of the baby I can just always stay away from my baby's father James, James is probably one of my biggest enemies right now ever since he went to bad boy records he just somehow changed from James Lloyd to "Lil Cease" you may know him as that well a lot of people do, we were together for a long ass time until he started music I don't know exactly what happened to the love we had it just kinda vanished
He started the music and the groupies, money, fame, tour bitches, and everything just came along and I couldn't he even got someone pregnant and had a whole daughter on me which is fucking stupid but it's whatever we through now.
"You are fucking lying y/n!" I covered her mouth and shook my head "no I'm serious I found out I was pregnant two weeks ago and no I haven't told James because we broke up and he's probably gonna force me to get an abortion which I'm not gonna do so I mind as well not tell him, fuck him Misa."
She sighed and shook her head "you gotta tell him y/n when was the last time y'all had sex?" I thought about it "last month, break up sex." She nodded and leaned back on my couch as I just sat there thinking
"I might tell him, they all still at the studio?" Shen nodded hoping up "you wanna go now?" I nodded getting up going to put on my air force ones getting my black jacket on "let's go" I locked my apartment door and we dashed to the studio after her telling me what time he was leaving the studio,
We pulled up and I took a deep breath sliding in my seat "did you bring the pregnancy test?" I nodded my head slowly tearing up as I didn't want to do this and my hormones are everywhere right now, "girl you are going to be fine just think positive"
We got out out the car and walking into the building "BAD BOY RECORDS" I instantly wanted to turn back around and go home but Misa nudged me "girl come on" she grabbed my hand and literally dragged me inside "oh my God I hate you for this" she laughed "hate his dick, this is his fault in the first place." I mugged her as she kept laughing cause I don't fund this shit funny at all,
As soon as we made it by the studio door my heart thumped loudly, Sean came out and I jumped "fuck! Sean, you scared me" I held my chest and looked at Misa to see she was a little frightened too he just chuckled "my bad but what's going on y/n? I ain't seen you in a minute" he hugged me and I sighed not really wanting to answer but Misa answered before I did
"She pregnant and James the father so know she gotta tell him, plus she was gonna get an abortion but didn't go through it." Well damn, he looked at me and shock with his jaw dropped so I closed it back "are you serious?!" I hurried and covered his mouth then nodded "yes now is he in there?" I asked whispering and he nodded grabbing Misa's hand walking away fast before I could respond I took a hard deep breath and instantly thought about my baby,
I pushed the door open to see James, Kim, Chris, Mason, and Faith they all looked at me and Kim, and Faith got up and hugged me nearly squeezing me to death "okay girls I can't breathe." I giggled out "we miss you so much." I smiled "I miss you guys too." They hugged me one more time and went to sit down then Big and Mase came and hugged me "what's going on?" James asked coming out the booth and I mentally rolled my eyes taking a deep breath,
And of course, Mase big mouth ass had to say something "I don't even know man y/n just walked in and gave free hugs." I mugged the fuck outta him as he just chuckled and James spoke: "y/n come on we need to talk." He walked out of the room and I just stood there confused "the fuck?" Wasn't I the one supposed to say that? Ion give a fuck though so I just walked out the room following him, not knowing where we were going cause in this big ass building the rooms were separated uniquely so yeah.
I and Cease finally got to the room he wanted to talk in and he sat in a chair on one side when I sat all the way down at the end of the table avoiding eye contact, It was silent for a while until he spoke up "how are you?" I looked up from my nails still playing with them "I'm fine you?" He shrugged "cooling but besides all that shit what went wrong between us?" I sighed sitting back in the chair
"I wanna ask you the same thing James, after the fame, money, fashion, tours, groupies you just forgot all about me and it's fucked up foreal I have always wanted to know what happened between us and thought I was able to fix it but my nigga you had a whole daughter behind my back and didn't tell me until we git to the hospital, that girls family was mugging me the whole time and I didn't know why until I realized you were having a baby, I tried to give you chance after chance b-but you hurt me a lot." At this point I was in hot ass tears I couldn't believe that I was pouring all my feelings out to him this was crazy as fuck,
He didn't say anything at all he just sat there staring at me and I got up "you know what it's fine" I started to get up going to to the door and he dashed towards me "calm down lemme talk cause I let you and I need you to listen." I sighed in defeat and just sat back down "alright talk."
He sat in the chair next to me and begin to speak
"Look Y/n, everything that we have been through fell outta place when I start becoming distant it was never because of the fame and stuff it was because I just had lost my brother and nobody knew about it until 15 days after his death, I didn't tell you because I knew it would just put more wait on your shoulders so I didn't tell you y/n when he died I just went wild and that's when I end up having my daughter I was still in love with you but when you started staying distant towards more as I did you I just figured it was too late so I backed out of the relationship but as long as we live I still will love you."
My voice got caught in my throat as I started to tear up some and I reached in my purse grabbing all the pregnancy test sitting them out one by one and looked at him "congrats your gonna be a daddy again." And with that I got up and walked out leaving him shocked as I just cried and ran out the building rushing to my car and leaving.
