Only fate (a tbnrfrags fanfiction)

The End

'beep... beep... beep...' 

The heart monitor buzzed as I struggled to breath. My children sat by my bed with tired eyes, my grandchildren who were always lively sat quietly with grim looks on their faces. My husband held my hand that was covered in IVs.

I felt sleepy, my body was numb from all the pain killers. My vision blurred for a second and I felt myself slipping away. 

I've lived 84 successful years, formed a life for myself after the most devastating time of my life. I thought about Preston every day and I knew he would have wanted me to live a normal life and so I tried my best.

For a second, I felt myself leaving my body but then slipped back into conscious. My family came into a very blurred view. 

"I love you" I whispered. 

I closed my eyes but there was no darkness, only light. I felt confused and could no longer feel my body. My mind was blank, I could not think nor did I have thought. 

The light became brighter, It was moving towards me until it encapsulated me. 

All around was white although I felt like I could not see white. I felt scared but I could not feel. 

An unmeasurable amount of time passed when a dark speck appeared. I could not tell if it was far or close to me but it was getting larger. Speck by speck, shapes started to form around me. My own figure started to form too but in the form of a youthful woman. It looked like particles struggling to form together vibrating in mid air. 

Suddenly the scene became clear - I remembered this day very distinctly. 

My unformed body stood outside of Preston's house on that dark day I felt lost and like I could not go on. The day that changed my life forever.

The particles around me stopped forming.

Although I could not feel my body, I felt a nudge forward and I took a step. 

As I moved forward, more particles formed. I took another step, more particles formed. The scene became more vivid, I could start to feel my body. 

It was clear to me at that moment that I had a choice - I could go back to this day and do it over. I did not move a step as my mind raced. I could redo my life and live as I wanted. I could live through all the happiness and all the pain with the man I wanted in my life forever. 

I knew what I wanted so I did not rethink or hesitate.

I sprinted. 

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Hey guys 

SURPRISE!

it's been a while and in the null of COVID 19, my little sister inspired me to write 'The End' 

I hope you guys enjoyed this. 

I wrote this when I was 14, I am 20 now. Reading this story over was atrocious. I know I had terrible grammar so thank God i'm an engineering major not an english major. 

Thank you so much for reading

-A