Chaotic Love

Chapter 19

"Do you know something about this?" Malaming na tanong sa akin ni Ella.

Sa aming lima, si Ella man ang pinaka-maarte ngunit siya rin ang may malasakit talaga. She's treating us like her other half. She can be easily driven by her emotions.

Rose would be the calmest person I know yet she's a keen-observer. She patiently waits for someone to tell her the whole story.

Aliesha would be the referee. Lahat ng hindi pagkakaunawaan namin ay iintindihin at aayusin niya.

Charm is the fragile one. Para siyang isang mababasaging pinggan. She's innocent.

At ako...ako ang duwag nilang kaibigan.

"Do you know something about this?" Ella once again coldly asked me.

Nanunuyo ang aking lalamunan ng dahan-dahan akong tumango sa kanya. I felt her small hand on my face.

"Ella!" Narinig kong awat ni Ali rito.

Kinakalma ni Rose si Charm. She called us, crying so bad.

Mapait akong ngumiti kay Ella. I stopped myself from crying.

"I know that they're half brothers. That's all!" Mangiyak-ngiyak kong paliwanag sa kanya.

Umiling lamang si Ella sa akin. "You should have told us!"

"That's not my--"

She harshly cut me off. "Your story to tell? So you'll just wait for something this chaotic to happened ha?"

Napayuko ako. Patuloy ang pag-iling ko sa kanya. Nanlalabo na rin ang paningin ko.

"I cannot believe you-"

"Stop it, Ella!" Rose screamed that it made us all quiet. "Stop, Ella." It was almost a whisper. "Stop blaming someone. Stop acting like you know how hard it is for Jerard to just be quiet. We don't know what happened-"

"If Dale trusts me, he would have told me." Charm weakly said.

I looked at Charm who's in mess. She managed to smile. "Liam trusts Jerard. I'm sure that Jerard doesn't want to break Liam's trust." She sighed. "It's just that Dale don't trust me enough."

Pinagpagan niya ang kanyang sarili at saka kami pilit hinila para sa isang yakap.

"Please stop fighting." Pakiusap ni Charm sa amin.

"I'm sorry." Ella mumbled.

That's how we simply ended our fight. We would just talk and hug each other.

"Kumusta OJT?" I smiled at Dinah. Niyaya niya kasi akong lumabas ngayon.

Bukas ay uuwi na kami. Tapos na ang OJT namin. Ilang linggong pahinga tapos fourth year na.

"What are you doing here?" Kunot-noo ko itong tiningnan.

She shrugged her shoulders and played on her drink. "Dad just threw me out of our house just so I could meet my fiance."

Napanguso ako dahil sa sinabi niya. Uso pa pala ngayon ang mga fixed marriage?

"Masyado namang makaluma ang tatay mo." I commented before sipping on my drink.

"I know." She lazily said.

Ayon kay Dinah ay tumakas lamang siya sa mga bodyguards na itinalaga sa kanya ng kanyang Tatay. Wow! Dinaig pa ng babaeng 'to ang anak ng presidente.

We just roam around Manila. Pagkatapos ay hinatid niya ako sa amin.

Tahimik ang biyahe namin pabalik Naga. Paminsan-minsan ko ring tinitingnan si Charm.

"I'm sure that she'll be fine." Ali said. Mukhang nahalata niya ata na kanina ko pa tinitingnan si Charm.

Katabi niya si Ella. Parehong tulog ang dalawa. Kami naman nina Rose at Ali ang magkakatabi.

"Naguguilty lang ako." Nanghihina kong tugon. "I feel like I should be blamed. If only she knew about it...it would have been easier for her to know the truth." Dagdag ko pa.

"What made you think that it would be easier? Liam didn't tell you anything about it, right?" I bit my lower lip and shyly nodded.

"Because Liam wants Dale to personally tell it to Charm." Ali continued. She held out my hand and looked at me straight in the eye. "It's okay to feel bad sometimes. Stop carrying every burden, Jerard. It was Dale's choice. Maybe he was just buying some time."

Pilit ko iyon itinatak sa isipan ko. Hanggang sa magsimula na ang pasukan namin.

Itinutok namin ang aming buong oras sa research. Masyado kasing detailed iyon. Kailangan ay hands-on kami. Good thing dahil kagrupo namin si Donna.

"Pogi naman talaga ng boyfriend niya." Ali commented right after we went out of Donna's house.

Hindi niya kasi ito napansin nang minsang sinundo ni Sir Gab si Donna.

"Gwapo rin naman iyong masugid mong manliligaw ah!" Pang-aasar ni Rose rito na agad din namang sinagot ng irap ni Ali.

"Kadiri ka ha!" She spat.

Napangisi na lang ako. Susunduin ako ni Liam ngayon. Sa pagkakaalam ko ay nakapag-usap na naman sina Liam at Charm.

"How was it?" He asked me.

Inaayos ko ang aking seatbelt. Ayaw naman sumama ng mga kaibigan ko. Ika nila ay bebe time na raw namin ito.

"Hard but bearable naman." Paliwanag ko sa kanya.

Tumango ito at saka nagsimula nang magmaneho. He parked his car in front of McDo.

Sabay kaming lumabas doon. He opened the door for me. Agad din akong naghanap ng vacant table para sa amin.

"How's...the girl?" Naiilang kong tanong kay Liam.

He fixed our food before answering me. "Jane's alright."

Tumango na lang ako sa kanya saka tumahimik na. I didn't blame Liam if he wasn't able to tell me anything. I just decided to not to talked about it.

Hinatid niya na ako pagkatapos naming kumain.

Days passed by too quick. We had our Intramurals. Donna got in but backed out. Ali's one of the candidates. Balita ko ay hindi makakanood sina Liam dahil sa mga gawain nila.

I saw Donna vomitting so bad that on one cue, I know what's happening.

Halos maubos ang boses ko kakasigaw sa pangalan ni Ali. Luckily, she won the title. Looks like it runs on the blood.

We successfully nailed our research defense. Now, we're graduating. Walang maiiwan sa amin.

It has been tough for everyone. Totoo nga ang sinabi nila na lahat tayo ay tahimik na nakikipaglaban sa mga problema natin.

I proudly clapped my hands upon hearing Donna's name. No one knew how hard she's going through. Her father died. She's pregnant. Hindi pa halata ang baby bump nito. But I am so glad that she's doing everything to keep herself and the baby safe.

Charm... I know she's doing her best to forget Dale. Alam kong masakit at mahirap iyon but seeing her smile while looking at us is so much.

Ella... She's fighting a battle she choses to not to tell to us. She's tough. Sa aming lima, siya ang pinakamatatag. I just hope that she would never forget that we have her back.

Rose... The one who haven't had any plans before now knew what to do with her life. Binigyan siya ng offer ng kompanyang pinagtrabahuhan namin. Sure na ang future ng kaibigan kong 'to.

Aliesha... She may have been just popped up suddenly but she gave us her purest personality. Ang alam ko ay mag-aaral ito ng abogasya. Alam ko rin na papasa 'to.

We faced a lot of struggles. But I know that we would be able to overcome it. I hope so.