"The uncrowned heiress of my family, a ran away princess, she's the combination of every bad thing."
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Cameron Hart, tasted hell when she was a kid. Since then, she had always been the villainess in her sister's life. After getting fed up with he...
+Trigger warning: sensitive topics ahead, please proceed with precaution+
ओह! यह छवि हमारे सामग्री दिशानिर्देशों का पालन नहीं करती है। प्रकाशन जारी रखने के लिए, कृपया इसे हटा दें या कोई भिन्न छवि अपलोड करें।
Sasha Sloan - Too sad to cry
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Cameron
"How are you feeling now, Cameron?" she was smiling widely at me. I looked at her with a blank face.
"Fine." tipid na sagot ko at muling inilibot ang paningin ko sa silid na kinaroroonan ko. For the past five years, apat na beses sa isang buwan kung pumunta ako kay Diva para sa weekly therapy ko.
Yeah, Diva is now a psychiatrist and I'm one of her patients. Five years have taken quite a toll on me. I lost Anda and Auntie. My family was happy without me. I feel so alone. But no, I did not slashed my wrist again, I need it to play cello. I just skip meals and sleep. I keep on seeing her face in my sleep. That's my life for the past five years. I'm on the last year of my high school life. Nothing's new actually. I still play cello and got high grades. Except for the fact I literally shut the world out. I don't go out of the house only when I am going to school or when Diva and Kaiser wants us to meet.
I don't socialize and I hate light, the reason why my room was dark because of the curtains blocking the light from the sun. I like locking myself in my room and pass out because of my sleepless nights and empty stomach.
It's like I've been killing myself just without slashing my wrist. Diva and Kaiser are now married, totally expected.
"Cami, it's good that your not hurting yourself but your also hurting yourself in another way." ayan naman ang galit na boses niya. I know they're worried because I'm their friend, I perfectly understand that, but what can I do? Ito ako. Ito ako ngayon. Life made me like this. Life snatched my life away from me.
"I'm really fine, Diva. How about you and Kaiser. It's been six months since the wedding, wala pa ba?" nakangisi kong tanong. I usually do this whenever she keeps on asking me to take care of myself.
"Really, Cami? Diverting the topic." asar na sabi ni Diva at inirapan ako. Loka to.
"Cami, don't you miss your old self? This isn't you. This is not you." muli niya akong tiningnan.
"I don't. How can I miss someone I don't know?" sagot ko habang nakangiti. Kung hindi lang talaga sila mapilit, hindi naman ako a-attend ng mga theraphy sessions na ito eh. I survived five years, I'll definitely survive the next ten years.
This bitch is a soldier. As hard as a rock.
"Haist." mas lumawak ang ngiti ko nang marinig ang pagbigay ni Diva. Tumayo na ako at sinukbit sa balikat ko ang shoulder bag na dala ko.
"Let's see each other next sunday, Doc. Diva!" I waved goodbye at her. She rolled her eyes and that made me chuckle. Nang makatalikod na ay agad nawala ang ngiti sa aking mga labi at nagsimula ng maglakad palabas ng clinic niya. I really hate it when sunday comes. I need to wake up early because my appointment is at nine o'clock. I need to move my ass out of the bed and walk towards the bathroom to take a bath. Then go downstairs to eat breakfast.
