The Model (Jastin)

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Justin Bieber

it's been 2 weeks since me and jason have made it official. this has been the best two weeks of my life. over the course of the past two months  jason has impacted my life so much. 

i can't stand the thought of leaving his side, but due to this shoot in bali, i have too. for one full week. that's the longest we will be apart since we met. it makes my heart tight. i feel like i can't handle the world without him. i mean i was doing it before him. but horribly. now that i have him, i don't want to let go. call me clingy but life is brighter with jason.

"call me as soon as you land baby" Jason handed me my duffle. i decided to just take a regular flight since the magazine is paying for it. i really wish jason could come.

"yeah i will" i sighed. he took his hand and put two fingers under my chin. i got butterflies in my stomach. i love when he does this.

"ima miss you baby boy" he rasped before placing his lips against mine. i already know people are taking photos but i couldn't bare breaking the kiss. although i saw the flashes of light and whispers i felt like it was just me and jason. "be safe ok?" he mumbled against my lips.

"y-yeah" i was so taken back. i wrapped my arms around his shoulders. "when i come back...i wanna take a break. ...from modeling" i trailed.

"whatever makes you happy" he kissed my forehead. "look you gotta board your flight. make sure you text me that you're safe..let me know if you need anything"

"okay jase" i smiled.

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i was happy with my decision. after i leave bali i'm gonna take a break from modeling. it's been a tuff few months with everyone finding out my dark past but jason came into my life and changed it. i wanna go to therapy and get my shit together. for jason.

i don't wanna fuck our relationship up. so i need to at least fix the bad within myself. "justin c'mere" the photographer spoke. he pointed to a flora scene and i began my poses. i wanted this week to come by fast. i wanted to be back in jason's arms.

"it's been a while justin how are you?" i've had this photographer before. his name is abel. it's pretty cool. his pictures aren't as great as jason's but if i can't have jason, i'd have abel.

"i've been okay. this is gonna be my last shoot for a while" i smiled.

"oh really? how come" he snapped my photo.

"well i wanna take some time for myself. to do stuff different, to be a better justin"

"that's great i'm happy for you" he snapped more photos. "i just hope you can come back from it"

i raised an eyebrow "what do you mean" i nervously laughed.

"well new people are trying to come into the modeling industry. it's tough. one model out and another one takes their place" my heart dropped. he's right. i'm not that important. my title can be snatched and given to anyone.

i continued to pose but began to reconsider my plans. maybe i shouldn't take a break. maybe i should work harder. i'll just squeeze in therapy some how. it's not impossible. i can do it.