𝐍𝐎 𝐅𝐄𝐄𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 | Hwang Hyunjin

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- - Futile devices - Sufjan Stevens - -
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Literally every confidence that I had disappeared again when I saw Hyunjin again.

He probably didn't saw me, he just went past me in the hallway.

But I could feel his aura. And it was like this aura ate up all of my confidence and courage.

I had a plan.

After school, I would catch him up when he's leaving and I would ask if I could talk to him. Firstly, I would say sorry for what I did and then I would confess. I couldn't plan how he reacted.

But I felt like this plan wouldn't go like I wanted it. I really didn't wanted to do this anymore. He was here, and just his presence scared me.

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When we were playing our games in the class, everyone had fun.

All the tables were moved and we sat on the ground, with a lot of pillows in a big circle. We were laughing and fooling around together.

My favorite game that we played was mafia. I just love it, I used to play it a lot in middle school. I'm really good at it, I'm good at lying.

But when we spent our time sitting together in the class, one thing bothered me all the time.

Hani sat next to Hyunjin and I could see that she was really touchy today. She grabbed his arm all the time and went closer.

Disgusting.

But he just let her do.
He didn't even bothered to do anything against it. And that let the anger inside of me growing bigger. I was jealous.

But what could I do? Nothing.

It wasn't my business.

The Bell rang to signal the school ended. Everyone left.

But while I also was about to leave, I saw something even more frustrating.

Hani was also about to left with her friends, but Hyunjin, who sat next to her, hold her back. He hold her hand.

She looked up to him. She must be as confused as me.

But I wasn't just confused, it made me sad.

It was like I saw the last little light of hope of a future with Hyunjin - even tho that sounds really cheesy - getting erased.

It really made me sad to see him with another girl, like this.

It was the sign for me that he didn't care about me anymore.

"Hani, can I talk to you?", I could hear Hyunjin say.

Why is he doing that to me?

And I wasn't the only one who noticed that.
All the other students in our class that were just about to left saw the two of them.

And they also seemed to be very confused.

I should just mind my own business.

But what if he wants to make me jealous?

It worked, I was jealous.

He's probably not doing that because of me.
Not the whole world revolves around me, so I don't even know what I am thinking that.

It's not my life, I should just go back home.

So I left with Chae and Esther and we walked to the bus stop.

But I couldn't stop thinking about that, the whole time. Why did he wanted to talk to her? And why the fuck did he had to hold her hand?
Ugh.

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(A/n)

I didn't update for 2 days omggg

That's a lot for me hahaha

But I did a lot of stuff with my friends and I was quite busy

But I mean 2 days isn't that much

But it could get a lil bit tight with my holidays

But U think I will have enough time even tho I didn't wanted to be too much on my phone

And I'm having kinda of a hard time writing my next chapters

I'm just not really satisfied

I have like the story (kind of) but it's really hard to write it down

But I can do it heheh

So see u tomorrow my kids :)