The Cold Mask

Chapter 19

Important note: tomorrow there will be no update because it's my brother's wedding so I am sorry

Enjoy ❤❤

Noah pov

"He is right son, you should go and tell her everything now" my mom said while cupping my cheeks

"And don't ever compare yourself with another person because everyone have  different conditions of life and I am sorry it's all my fault I couldn't take care of you the right way, could you forgive me Noah?" my mother said while sobbing

I brushed her tears "don't ever say that!!you don't have anything to apologize for even if they gave me a chance to change anything in my life I wouldn't take it because I will be afraid that our little family will be taken away from me,you are my treasure" we hugged each other and Sam joined us

"Now let me take you home and then I will go to Cataleya" I said with a smile and my heart was beating faster thinking about what I will do

"No need, Eli was the one who took us here he saw you entering here and knew that you will be needing us so he quickly brought us here" Sam told me and I was surprised

"Why didn't he came he is also family" I said looking left and right trying to spot him

"He thought that you are still angry at him so he didn't come" I chuckled at that

Stupid bastard

I got up and went towards the gate and the moment I saw him I pulled him on a hug "thank you for bringing them" I said while pulling away

"Don't worry, I am sorry" he said not looking at my eyes

I smiled at him

"You know I don't trust women just your mother so it's hard for me to ..." he  stumbled on his words and I knew what he meant

His mother left him with his alcoholic father and with a sister that also left him,the person who took care of her and neglected his studies to work just for her, the moment she turned 18

So it's hard for him with woman and I was stupid to be upset of him

"Now go because it became sappy and it's not our still" I burst out laughing and nodded my head while turning my head making my way to the car but not before hearing him say

"Be careful with your heart"

The entire ride I was shaking and my nervousness was taking the best of me I lost count of how much I made a U-turn

But in the end I arrived at the mansion while repeating my family words as my motive to tell her everything

"Ok just go there tell her that you like her and you would like to go on a date with you and hear here answer if it will be a yes take her right now so she won't change her mind and if it is a no nod your head and go back to your family with your  head held high because at least you told her everything and then watch with them a depressing movie on your worn out couch"

I pep talked myself, got out of the car and rounded the corner to get to the door but to my surprise I was met with Cataleya hugging Cristiano

I should have just turned back and went home

I should have just closed my eyes and forgot everything

I should have done anything but what I did next

I lost control and just saw red

One moment I was watching them the next I was pulling Cristiano back from the hug and pushed him to the floor

I was on top of him in a matter of second and I begin to threw punch after punch at him

"Noah" her voice rang in my ears but I didn't respond to her

And continue letting my emotions go and the sole thing in my head was

SHE IS MINE

"NOAH!!" This time I stoped my fist mid air because it was the first time I saw an emotion even thought it was anger I was still surprised

I got up from of a barely conscious Cristiano and walk towards her with anger clear on my face

I stopped when I was face to chest with her and bored my glare on her

"What are you doi.."

Before she could continue her phrase and try to defend that asshole I put my hand on the back of her neck and pulled her towards me and crashed my lips on her with a punishing, harsh kiss

She struggled and pushed me with all her might until I stumbled back

Her face was blank not letting me know anything in head and that made me really angry

And on top there is the rejection of my kiss

So I couldn't take it anymore and I snapped

 "WHY? WHY CAN'T YOU FEEL ANYTHING FOR ME!?" I shouted at her feeling suffocated

"Why can't you be like all the normal girls that smile and cry ? WHY??"

I continued but her next words made me freeze

She spoke with anger clear on her voice

"Because I have Alexithymia , no words for feeling. I feel nothing or anger"

So....

Who expected that??

Till next time ❤❤