The Cold Mask

Chapter 37

Noah pov

"Oh that" she said and tried to pull herself in a sitting position but she groaned and clutched her waist

I quickly helped her up "Are you ok?" I asked frantically getting on my legs preparing myself for running to get a doctor

"I am fine!! I'm fine sit down" she said patting the place I was before

"But-" I began but she interrupted me by putting her hand on mine and pulling hard

Getting me by surprise making me stumble next to her

"I told you before about how alexithymia is the inability to identify and express emotions right?" She question making me nod at her

"Well the identify part I worked with Dr.Cristiano for a long time till I could do it even in my own way

Then after that came the express part back then when Dr.Cristiano asked me if I want to begin our learning I told him I don't want to" she said making me frown and open my mouth to question

But she silenced me by a peck on the lip and a shake of her head making me know she doesn't want to be interrupted

"At that time I told him that why would I spend another 7 years or more on doing something that doesn't benefit me?

Just so people will accept me and not speak behind my back without even knowing anything

Why would I tier myself and go home some days feeling defeated because I am not achieving my goal or even black out because my emotions are too much?

Back then he just looked at me with the same look dad and Rose had given me when I've woken up from a melt down

He came and hugged me and told me that I will find an answer at those questions one day and I would get back to him

And he would be waiting so we could begin our long journey with a smile

And I did" she said while looking directly at me

"You were the answer

I won't do it for those people I will do it for you, for us

So when you introduce me as your girlfriend when you became a famous fighter you would be proud of me when I smile at them, and for an episode like with Eli never happened again

I would do it so when you'd be your usual amazing self and take me on an amazing date like last time I could actually show you how happy I am not just with words but also with expressions

So a week and a half ago I went to Dr.Cristiano and when I told him I am ready he smiled and we began our training without any question

I was really glad I could do it that day so if something happened you would have remembered me in a beautiful way" she finalized while putting her hand on my cheek and brushing a tear I didn't even know that slipped

She was willing to do all that just for me

I hugged her closer to me in a bear hug

"Princess you shouldn't have done that if you don't want I would be proud of you no matter what and if a situation like with Eli happened again I would never talk to that person again

Eli was just an exception

And your words are more than enough trust me" I said while pulling back and cupping her cheeks

"But I want to do that for me also" She said looking directly at my eyes

"Then I will be with you every step of the training even I will share with you your exhaustion, your melt down and everything