I woke up with the feeling that I was being watched. I opened my eyes slowly and saw jaden looking at me.
J: hey rosie, how you feeling?
Then it hit me. All the memories of this morning just came rushing back. I got up and sprinted to the toilet and threw up. Jaden ran after me and held my hair back as I was sick.
J: it's okay rose, you're okay
R: it hurts
I started to cryJ: I know, it's all gonna be okay
He held me as i collapsed into him. I couldnt stop crying, I cried until I couldnt cry anymore. Jaden stroked my hair like he usually did and I slowly stopped crying but it still hurt. It hurt so bad.
R: jae?
J: yeah
R: why wasnt I.. enough for him
J: hey. Listen to me.
He turned my head to face him and looked me in the eyesJ: you are, and will always be good enough. He didnt deserve you and he just couldnt see the amazing girl he had.
R: it just feels like maybe i just didnt give him what he needed
J: it's not your fault rose, i promise.
I just laid my head on his shoulder. He carried me back to his bed.
R: jae could you get bryce to come up here please?
J: of course
A few minutes later Bryce came into the room and sat on the bed.
B: how you feeling rosie?
He gave me a sorry smileR: it hurts
A tear fell from my eye but he wiped it away and hugged meB: he didnt deserve you, you didnt need him anyway
R: thank you bryce
B: do you wanna tell me what happened or maybe another time?
R: maybe later, can we go to target and get snacks and then watch a movie.. with jaden too
B: sure, I'll go get in the car. Come down when you're ready
I smiled and he left. I put on black sweats and a black hoodie with the hood up and then my airforces. I didnt bother taking my phone or doing my hair or makeup because I just couldn't look at myself. Everytime i saw myself all i could see was this broken girl who was abused, raped and cheated on.
I got in the car and jaden and bryce were already in there. Jaden sat in the back with me while Bryce drove.
We got to target and got our snacks, I got sour patch kids and popcorn. We drove home and the three of us cuddled up in jadens bed whilst watching Harry Potter.I fell asleep half way through the second movie and woke up a little later. Bryce was gone but jaden was asleep next to me. I felt numb. I couldn't feel anything. No pain. No sadness. No happiness. Nothing. It's like I know the pain is there but i cant feel it anymore. I walked into the bathroom and looked in the mirror. Tears ran slowly down my cheeks but I wasnt sad. All I wanted was to feel, something, anything.
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I grabbed a razor and snapped out the blade.. I dug it into my wrist and dragged it along, I felt it. I was so relieved to feel something that I didnt notice jaden waking up, he looked over at me in the bathroom and ran out of bed...Issys notes:
Shes broken :(. This hurt to write because sometimes I feel this way. If anyone ever needs to talk then please let me know. You all deserve to be here and ily<3
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