The Fault in Our Stars - Larry Stylinson

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It had been over a week since Harry kissed me.

I hadn't been in school all week and I had ignored all his texts and calls.

To Zayn and Liam I had just said that I had the flu.

They had wanted to come and check on me but I said that I was fine and that I didn't want to infect them.

Tomorrow I had to go back to school since I can't avoid it forever but I just wasn't ready to see Harry.

Ignoring him in real life would be so much harder.

But I knew that this was the right thing to do.

I was almost at rock bottom again.

The feeling of complete emptiness was back.

All I did was smoke, cry and stare at the ceiling in my room.

I had a lot of showers as well.

I checked the time on my phone - 10:54 pm.

I hadn't left my flat all week for any other reason than to buy cigarettes so after thinking it through I decided to go to the park.

Put on my shoes and left the building.

When I got there Harry wasn't there.

I mean of course he wasn't but some part of me had hoped that he was going to sit in the grass waiting for me.

But I was completely alone in the park so I made my way over to our spot, laid down and cried.

For hours.

I awoke to the annoying sound of my alarm.

I sighed and stepped out of bed.

On my way to school I smoked a cigarette, trying to calm my nerves.

It didn't work.

I felt like I was going to throw up when I reached school.

Here goes nothing I thought as I stepped inside.

As soon as Zayn and Liam saw me they pulled me aside.

"Hey, how are you feeling?" Liam asked me.

"I'm fine" I lied.

"I think we need to talk," Zayn said worriedly.

"I don't think so" I said.

"C'mon Louis"

"What?"

"We know what happened between you and Harry" Liam said.

"I don't want to talk about it"

"You know he's hurt right.."

"Sorry but I have to get to class now" I said as I rushed away.

They knew.

Harry had told them.

I had hurt Harry.

They probably all hated me now.

Maybe that was for the best.

It was the last period and I still hadn't seen Harry.

Mondays was the only day that Harry and Niall didn't have lunch at the same time as the rest of us and I hadn't run into him in the hallway either which I was really grateful for.

I was putting my books in my locker when I saw him.

Our eyes met.

I felt my heart drop.

I slammed my locker shut and I ran.