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Another day is here
Now I fear it again
Is it going to be okay?
Or should I trust my guts and stay home?
What if I was wrong and my day will be the best but just if I step out of the house and walk my way
So I knocked it out and believed I'm going to have a good day
Now I'm stuck here in a place I hate
And I wish I could dissappear without anyone noticing me
I close my eyes and imagine myself at home
Hoping those moments will past fast so I won't feel alone
Or drown in an ocean of thoughts
Then it will be hard to find my way back to this world
And I'll be stuck in a world that I don't know where it lays
Is it beneath the dead people or the living ones?
Maybe worse, what if it lays between both of them?
Hiddien away from my eyes
And I'll be just a new guest
Waiting for someone to give me a sign and shout my name
So I could come back to this moment and relive it all again
They'll ask me "where have you been?"
I'll shake my head "I dont know"
But they're staring at me now got me wondering was is something I said or they knew about the things inside my head
I felt embaressed
Took my stuff and left
I walked all the way alone
I got home
And cried myself to sleep
Hoping I'll dream about it tonight
Maybe I can fix it this time and answer them right
So they won't stare at me that way again
But I'm afraid what's going to happen if I miss it again
Are they going to have me with them?
Or threw me out?
But for now I'll knock myself out to make it right
And make them satisfied...at least

-About getting lost in a thought and missing reality/having to deal with its consequences-

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