This Is For You

bittersweet

In a room full with people
You are the one I look at
And  your voice is the only one I hear 
Know that I still think of  you when you aren't here
Know that I still want you if you didnt, still
Know that I still see you in dreams once in a while
You still look perfect or am I the one whos going blind?
And when I first wake up, I think
How can I breakup with someone I havent dated?
And I try to find a name for it
Ill call it bittersweet
And I guess you know why
You were the only person I wanted to talk to about you leaving me but you werent here
Five months took me to heal from  one bruise you left but still there's two
And five months took you to forget all about me
I can't deny it
You are the reason I cried everynight
And wished you could find your way out of my mind
I keep on lying to myself and sometimes I found me lost in the words you said
Trying to reach you
Or talking to you in my mind
Its funny how I couldn't get over you still
Am I the sick one or you're the pain?
And if I'm sick know you're the medicine
And If you're the pain know that I don't want to heal from you
Now I just wish that I saved myself
And looked from the prespective of my brain
Instead of lying to myself
saying it will all work out and that we were meant to be
Now I know that we were meant to be nothing but two strangers who kept each other secrets
But have you kept mine or told them all to your friends?
Your love is bittersweet
And I'm not going to lie
When I fell for you I fell really hard that my bone got broken and I couldnt enjoy the air touching my face
Because it was so fast
Your love was bittersweet
And sometimes I wonder was it love or something else
Now I wish I could see your face again
But if this world going to keep on putting as apart
Know that the other world is waiting for us
The world of my dreams where we are meant to be
I'll be waiting there for you
And praying every night that I'm the one you dream of tonight
So we could put our feet on the same land again

For The 1975 lover.