This Is For You

Over you

I dont know if I'm over you now
Maybe I dont want to give you up
And Im confused
I dont even want to think about it
But Id take thinking about you for hours
And I'm used to that
But I couldn't get used to you in my dreams
So scared that I won't ever let you out of my mind
And now you're hanging out
While the thought of you eating me inside out 
And you'd never care
I swear that you didn't at all

I dont know if I'm over you now
Maybe I dont want to give you up
And Im confused
I dont even want to think about it
But Id take thinking about you for hours
And I'm used to that
But I couldn't get used to you in my life again
So scared that you'll leave me hurt again
Or I'll do it to myself and leave you instead
And I think I havent knew you at all
Turns out you dont love The 1975 as much as I thought you did
But who am I writing to now?
Aren't you The 1975 lover that I'm falling for?
And I guess I haven't knew you at all
But at least I knew you for a while
To make me grow a hundred years old
But I never wanted to grow tough

I dont know if I'm over you now
Maybe I dont want to give you up
And Im confused
I dont even want to think about it
But Id take thinking about you for hours
And I'm used to that
But I couldnt get used to your face filling my head when I'm awke
So scared that I'll see you in my dreams once more
So I'll fall for your ruined hair once again
Or I'll fall for the beauty of your shape that I'm the only one who could see
So scared that I'll see you once again in real
And I'll think it
havent I wanted it?
With shaken knees I'll try to hide my fears and act friendly in front of you
you'll believe it
And that what hurts the most

I dont know if I'm over you now
Maybe I dont want to give you up
And Im confused
I dont even want to think about it
But Id take thinking about you for hours
And I'm used to that
Im used to that now
that you're gone and I'll bury you under my bed
And I'll tattoo the words you've once said in my hands
And I'll read my thoughts out loud four times a day as the doctor have said
I'll bury you my dear love
Hoping this won't mean a thing to me when I wake up after years
Hoping you'll read this in a dream and dissappear forever
Hoping you'll dissappear forever my dear
Now I'm not hoping for a happy ending
Now I'm not hoping to meet you again
Now I'm not hoping for you to love me back
Now I'm just hoping you won't come back

I know that I'm going to be over you after leaving those words here
I know that I'm going to be over you after the last drop of ink
I'll be over you my dear

I know that I'm all over you now
But it took me to kill you
So I could live again

This is the end of the story dear
And congrats it is not a happy one

for The 1975 lover.