"i'm sorry"// daniel seavey

part forty seven

time skip 2 months

me n daniel have gotten closer than ever. we are wit each other almost every hour of the day. he's been sleeping a lot in my room. i now have a drawer just for him to put sum his clothes so he doesn't have to go back to his room to change.

we've been making out more often. but we haven't had sex yet. i'm just scared i don't know. like i know that he will never do what my ex did to me but you know it's just too much for me. but i feel like we're getting closer n closer to that point.

the rest of the boys lowkey know bout us. like they haven't said anything to us but i know they're thinking it n seeing shit. i so know that they're betting on us. i just know it.

my parents have been visiting us n i go over there too. brian sleeps over at our house quite a bit. i lowkey feel bad for my parents bc brian likes to sleep at ours but that's brian's fault. he's stupid. also brian has been getting closer to the guys which is the best feeling ever. it's like the brothers he always wanted you know.

i still can't believe i graduated college. like it feels amazing to not stay up until 3 am finishing up my school work. like oh my gosh i feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulder.

i still go to work obviously but we just got a new employee so i'm gonna have less hours which i'm totally fine wit. it feels good to have time to just lay down or hang wit the boys.

corey is always on my mind but i'm getting a bit better wit all of it. instead of being sad, i just celebrate his life n look at the funny n good memories i had wit him. i know he would hate for us to cry bout him

i feel like my life is a dream. it feels so not real. but i am ever so great full for everyone n everything in my life.

july 31, 2020
6 pm
friday

we're all now just in the guys house n fuck i'm bored

alex: bruhhhhh i'm bored
daniel: are you calling me boring?
alex: yeah bitch
daniel: shut up that's not what you say when we're in your room
alex: okay sir calm down
jack: woah what was that all bout?
alex: nun
zach: whatever you guys say
mariah: hey alex you wanna go on a drive? we haven't done that in a while
alex: YESSS LETS GOOO
jonah: but i don't mariah to leave me
alex: oh suck it up jonah. it's in gonna be for a few hours and before any of y'all ask, no y'all can't come. it's only me n mariah
mariah: okay perfect bye bitches
alex: see y'all hoes soon
daniel: have fun stupid

i go to our crib real quick to grab my keys n shit then i meet mariah in my car. i start the car n out the windows down then i started driving.

mariah connects her phone to the car n she starts playing music. lil tjay my forever husband starts playing n we start screaming while rapping to his songs. he's just amazing

i'm honestly just driving around anywhere. i lowkey don't know where i am but that's the fun part of going on random drives. we're just stuck in the music right now. we literally just finished listening to all his songs n it's been a hour probably or more.

it's now around 7:30 n the sun is gonna set soon so we planned to watch the sunset at the spot so started driving here as we're listening to one direction n i'm singing my heart out. i miss one direction so much y'all don't even know.

by the end of 10 one direction songs we make it to the spot so i park n take out a blanket

i set the blanket down as we finish we sit next to each other. the sun is gonna set in like 30 minutes so this is a good time to talk bout everything we're feeling. acting like we don't talk everyday bout this shit but still.

mariah: you know i really like jonah. like i really do. i haven't felt this way in the longest time or like ever. he makes me the best version of myself. like how did i find such an amazing guy? he's also very respectful n no matter how many times we kissed n shit like that he will always ask me if i'm okay wit it every time. like he's just so cute.
alex: i'm so happy for you always. n i love jonah so much. even before we met them i could tell that jonah would be like that. that all of em would be like that. y'all deserve each other n i truly feel like you guys are soulmates.
mariah; wow. i feel that too. thanks baby. but talk to me bout daniel
alex: it's like i know but i don't at the same time. like obviously we both like each other so much but im scared like always but i feel like he will very soon break down a few of the rest of the walls i still have up. like he's just amazing n also a great ass kisser. i'm being honest right now. i fell in love wit him over the internet. but now that i met him n his true self im even more in love n i didn't know that can happen.
mariah: that's absolutely amazing alex. i can so tell daniel is literally in love wit you. how he looks at you n just holds your hand in any situation is just so cute. n i approve of him. i really do. he's made you feel safe all the time wit him. he made you open up n you never thought that would happen. he makes you happy which obviously makes me the happiest so it's just so amazing. alex you found the one no joke.
alex: mariah we both did

daniel's pov(before they started driving)

after i made sure alex left i turn to the boys

daniel: okay that couldn't have happened more perfectly
corbyn: why?
daniel: tonight i'm asking alex to be my girlfriend

HES GONNA WHAT ?!?