Secrets (Book 2 of "Rock Bottom") // A Tony Lopez Story\\

Chapter 9

It's been three weeks and I've isolated myself from everyone and everything. I've just been in my studio working on songs but, one in particular right now. Whenever anyone would try to talk to me, I'd push them away. It came to the point where I won't even eat and... yeah... it sucks... It sucks really fucking bad but I tried and that's all I was able to do and now... I have nothing...

After weeks of work, I finally finished my song. I went onto all socials, telling all my fans that my new song, Iris, is about to drop in five minutes. I listened over it, to make sure everything was to my standard, then dropped it on spotify, sound cloud, apple music, and youtube.

After I dropped it, I snuck into the kitchen to grab some water when everyone was in my living room, listening to my song on the speakers and my TV, watching the visualizer

And I'd give up forever to touch you. 'Cause I know that you feel me somehow. You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be and I don't want to go home right now and all I can taste is this moment and all I can breathe is your life and sooner or later it's over I just don't want to miss you tonight. And I don't want the world to see me. 'Cause I don't think that they'd understand. When everything is made to be broken I just want you to know who I am. And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming or the moment of truth in your lies. When everything feels likе the movies yeah, you bleed just to know you'rе alive. And I don't want the world to see me 'cause I don't think they'd understand. When everything is made to be broken I just want you to know who I am. And I don't want the world to see me 'cause I don't think that they'd understand. When everything is made to be broken. I just want you to know who I am. I just want you to know who I am...

I just leaned up against the counter, watching them as if I wasn't there. Charli, Mia, Dixie, Kelianne, Liv and Kouvr were crying. Alex stared into his lap, Nick ran his hands through his hair as he sighed, Thomas looked out the window, Michael was bouncing his leg up and down in frustration, Calvin and Patty stared at each other speechlessly, Tayler got upset and ended up walking out, Nate stared at the floor, Papper smoked his vape as he held his head, Chris rested his head on Enrique's shoulder, and Ondre, he was... a mess... Two important people in his life are... gone... and he feels like he's losing everyone... Nick had told me two weeks ago that things aren't great with him and Liv and that they've been distant with each other. But, it wasn't my business to get in the middle of it

Y/N: Well, what do ya'll think?!

They all looked at me and froze

Y/N: What?

Liv jumped off the couch and waddled to me as fast as she could then she rammed her body into mine as she cried

Olivia: I'm so sorry!

Y/N: For?

Olivia: Everything you're going through! It must be so hard!

I shrugged and she pulled away

Y/N: It's whatever. Wouldn't be the first time I wanted to die.

I smiled and walked to the fridge as the air in the room suddenly got thicker, heavier but I shook it off as best as I could, not wanting to show everyone how I really felt. I grabbed a water bottle and took a drink as everyone stared at me

Y/N: Is there something in my teeth or something? What're ya'll looking at?

Ondreaz: Y/N...

Y/N: Yes Ondre?

He got up and walked into the kitchen and stood in front of me

Y/N: Jeez big guy! Give a woman her space-!