Beautifully Broken

Chapter 13.

Arriving at the mall we went to mostly every single store there was. The girls all bought clothes while I just bought some accessories and some shoes. Right now we were waiting for Amara to finally pick another pair of shoes.

"Amara come on you already bought 3 pairs of shoes and there all mostly the same" Isabelle exasperated

"Isabelle how many times do I have to tell you there not the same there different colors and fabric so be quite and let me try them on" Amara scowls

After 45 minutes in the shoe store amara finally picked out another shoe she wanted. Now in my car listening to my musics while heading over to a diner to go eat.

Thought I found a way
Thought I found a way, yeah (found)
But you never go away (never go away)
So I guess I gotta stay now

Oh, I hope some day I'll make it out of here
Even if it takes all night or a hundred years
Need a place to hide, but I can't find one near
Wanna feel alive, outside I can't fight my fear

Isn't it lovely, all alone?
Heart made of glass, my mind of stone
Tear me to pieces, skin to bone
Hello, welcome home

Walkin' out of town
Lookin' for a better place (lookin' for a better place)
Something's on my mind (mind)
Always in my head space

But I know some day I'll make it out of here
Even if it takes all night or a hundred years
Need a place to hide, but I can't find one near
Wanna feel alive, outside I can't fight my fear

'God I swear if Billie asked me to marry her no doubt I would say yes and drop everything for her'

Arriving at the diner I exist my car and head inside and see everyone already there, we order our food and start to talk

"Luna can i ask you a question" avena ask "yeah about" I replied while taking a bite out of my chicken finger

"Do you and Azriel have a thing" she bluntly asked. While taking a sip of my soda I started to cough and choke

Wiping my mouth I ask "what made you think that" looking down at the table with a frown "idk I just see the way you guys talk to each other and the way you two look at each other and all and I just thought you guys you know" she replied

"Avena nothing is going on with me and Azriel I love him but as my brother and he'll always be that to me" I tell her "I know you like him just get to know him and I trust you to not hurt him"

"Thanks"

"Damn you better shoot your shot cause she just gave you a green light she never gives anyone a green light" Amara input "yeah last time a girl try to ask him out she beat the bloody hell out of her"

"She had it coming, threatening me not to be near him or talk to him like honey I love with him" I say "but yeah hurt him and I'll hurt you" I give her a sweetly smile

"U-h-h yea noted" she stutter

"So now that she revealed her feelings for Azriel what about you two lady's" Elora wiggles her eyebrows toward Amara and Isabelle

"Yeah what going on with you guys and Ciro/Leone" I ask

"Nothing"

"Mmmh we see the way you guys look at each other don't lie" elora says "yeah tell us"

"No really nothings going on we barely know them and we're just talking for now" Isabelle replies "mmh for now" Elora winks at them

"How about you any guys or girls you seeing Elora" I ask "well I'm sleeping with this guy on the football team, Justin but nothing else, you?" She tells

"Nope I have fuck buddies but that's all, I don't believe in falling in love for myself" I tell them

'Once upon a time I did believe in love but he isn't here anymore' i thought

"You sound like my brother" avena grumbles "well I guess he has a story as well" I whispered

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After we finished eating we all said goodbye and headed our ways. Entering my parents house I head towards Luca's room and see he's sleeping with his stuff shark I head over to his bed and give him a quick kiss and walk out

Walking towards my room I passed by Lucianos room, after everything that happened I couldn't enter his room it just brought back memories that I don't wanna be reminded of.

I made a promise to myself after I lost him and Luciano. I promised to put Luca above myself and above everybody I couldn't let him see the world for what it really is, he's a child he shouldn't have to see that and when the time comes for him to know the truth of the family business I'll always give him an option regardless if he never wants to see me again

I can never let Luca see that side of me, the lethal part of me that had no remorse or humanity inside of me the person that craved blood all over her and the scent of death of her enemies. Other people's live didn't matter to me not then not now, the untamed beast that lived in the other half of me found pleasure in people's pain, it found pleasure of taking a life away, of seeing there soul drain out of them once I killed them. That's side I can never show to my little brother he's the reason I wake up in the morning and never give up because Luca is my saving grace.

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