A New Feeling - Draco Malfoy Fanfic

G O O D B Y E

He held me tightly in his arms for what felt like hours. I was taking it all in as this is most likely the last time I'll be this close with him.

I memorized his scent. The way his peppermint smell caused goosebumps to crawl up my arms. The way it made me feel safe, made me feel like I was home.

I didn't wasnt to leave this moment. I wanted time to freeze so I could re-live this over and over again. But I had to let go or his father would kill my parents and torture Draco. I can't let that happen.

"Are you going to tell me what's wrong?" He said looking down at me with his gorgeous eyes. I'm going to miss the way he looks at me, like I'm the only girl in the world.

He sits up from our sleeping position and forces me up with him so we are sat facing each other. "Leah?"

I immediately crashed my lips onto his, wrapping my arms around his neck. His hand rested below my ear, his thumb caressing my cheek as our breaths mingled. The kiss was passionate and desperate. Our lips were firm against each other and I took every second in.

For that moment all my worries left my mind and I just thought of him and our kiss. It was that one kiss that made me realise I was to deep. I can feel myself tremble. I felt like I cowered in that moment, I didn't want to leave him. But It was the only way. I knew this would be our last ever kiss, and that hurt my heart like a bullet.

For him, this kiss was normal. For me, this kiss was a goodbye.

My lips slowly pulled away from his, our foreheads leaning on each other. We were so close. It was time. The time I knew would come sooner or later but dreaded. How was I supposed to just do it without feeling like I've lost a part of me.

"I'm sorry Draco." I manage to tremble out. I bit my tongue, trying to hold the tears that threatened to leave my swollen eyes. Until one small crystal bead escapes from my right eye, sliding down my rosy cheek and rolling off my chin.

He pulled away, squeezing my shaking hand and slowly wipingthe tear away with his soft thumb. "What are you sorry for?"

I took a deep breath before beginning "I can't see you anymore Draco, we need to stay away from each other."

"What?" He breathed, confusion lurking in his eyes. I could see the pain sinking in. It broke my heart, causing a pain to swell in my chest. "Why?"

How was I supposed to answer that? 'Oh your father told me to stay away from you or he'd kill my parents' I couldn't do that to him and make him feel guilty. So I had to lie.

"What we have, it can't last any longer. I just...it doesn't feel right—I'm sorry."

Every single word was a lie. I fucking loved him. More than anyone. But I couldn't just tell him that and just leave. That wouldn't be fair on him. I just wanted to cry into his arms again but I had to be strong.

Silence.

He was just looking at me with pain and heartbreak in his eyes. He felt betrayed. I hated myself for this. But I had to do it, I couldn't bare the thought of him being tortured because of me. He had to let me go.

"Leave." He quietly spoke. He looked down, no longer meeting eyes.

"I'm sorr-"

"I said leave" he raised his voice. I nodded. The tears from my eyes began to burst forth like water from a dam, spilling down my face.

I walked to the door and opened it quietly before turning around to look at him. He sat there staring at his hands, he looked broken. My stomach felt like I was being stabbed. I felt so fucking guilty, but I did this for him.