French Kiss in Paris

Chapter 26

Chapter 26

I never went straight back home. Hindi 'ko kayang mapag-isa. Pero ayoko ring maging puno ng atensyon ng mga tao. I called Victor before the taxi driver dropped me somewhere else. Ang instruction ko lang kasi ay ibaba ako sa isang park na malapit lang sa lugar. I can't pay too much kaya napalayo pa ako. Even though I'm receiving money for online posting, hindi pwedeng palagi akong nakadepende do'n.

I feel so devastated. Wrecked. Cashel thought I betrayed him. I have no idea how to take my ass off from this cruel situation. My feet stuck on the ground and I've been thrown a lot of humiliation.

A kiss started it all. It also ended with a kiss. Pakshet lang. Palad ko na lang sana ang nilaplap ko kagaya ng mga lalaki na ang kadamay ang kanilang mga palad kapag sawi!

I was dropped into Square Dupleix. Based on my online map, I'm still around the seventh. At hindi naman nakakaligaw dahil tanaw na tanaw ko sa kinatatayuan ko ang katayugan ng Eiffel Tower. It is one of the parks for children and I thought I would be safe here in the mean time. There are still kids and parents alongside the playground and I just stood near the trees where I'm not that relevant to many but easy to see—if there's something will happen, makakahingi agad ako ng tulong.

But will they ever help me? Now that I'm one of the biggest controversies in Paris—even worldwide. I never asked for it. Then I came out as a bad person—girlfriend worldwide and how would the public see me? 

Whoever posted those videos online without my permission. Shame on them. 

I crossed my arms, trying to relieve myself from the nothingness I feel. Tinatanaw ko naman ang mga batang naglalaro sa playground. They were laughing, they were playing so hard that some of them didn't care if they were stumbling upon things or rocks. Ang sarap lang ng buhay ng mga bata. I envy them when they can all have fun and all the adults have to worry about simply called life.

Paulit-ulit naman akong nagte-text kay Victor na naghihintay na ako sa kanya. I've been dreading. Mabuti na lang din ay walang pumapansin sa akin. I tried covering my face with my hair then put on the beret to let it stay that way. Bantay sarado din ako sa paligid ko. Paparazzi's are all around. Hindi ako makakampante pero ayoko ring mag-stay sa apartment ko. It is small as hell. Masu-suffocate ako ro'n. I know it's my home but I just couldn't be there right now.

And it took roughly twenty minutes when Victor arrived. Pagkakita ko pa lamang sa kanya ay agad ko siyang sinalubong ng yakap. I've never done it to anyone na ganito ang nararamdaman ko. It almost feels like the world hates me and I only have myself. As in no one. But good thing I have a friend like Victor who watches out for me.

"I don't usually hug people but I'll make an exemption for you," Victor said, can't help but that made me laughed. Hinigpitan niya ang mga yakap niya at pakiramdam ko ngayon ay hindi ako nag-iisa.

Victor and I don't know each other a few weeks ago and he became my ride or die in any possible situations. He was there with me every morning kapag pupunta kami sa metro. Kapag gagala kami somewhere in the city. Nando'n din siya no'ng hindi maganda ang pakiramdam ko and he's here to comfort me after the controversy scandal.

Nang humiwalay siya sa pagkakayakap sa akin, tinabil niya ng mahina ang pisngi ko.

"What was that for?" I gasped, sucking my breath in.

He smirked, shaking his head. "I told you, Cosette."

"It's not my fault, Victor," I defended but he gave me a suspicious look which I know what it meant. I heaved out a sigh and dropped my shoulder. "Yes, I admit it. I had my fault there but I didn't do it out of my consciousness. I'm drunk. I don't know what I'm doing. Clearly, on the video, I was provoked to kiss him. He's such a gorgeous man kaya hindi ko rin maiwasan 'yon."