Faking it

It's your fault

PROV KORRA

it was the next day and I felt miserable. yeah I was up but I didn't want to get out of bed I just wanted to stay and just think about Asami. I know for a fact this is all a mistake but how can I tell my parents that I'm in love with a girl? The south is not like Republic city... they are not as understanding so how can my parents understand how I feel about Asami ? Anyways they promised me to Mako not caring if I would fall for him or not. It's like I can't actually be myself around them. Plus they don't even know Mako thinking he's this nice sweet boy but in reality he's an asshole. I just can't believe in two more weeks I'm going to be married to him and someday we are going to have kids. I just wish things could be different because I don't see myself with him for the rest of my life. I could see myself being with Asami and maybe having kids with her. I mean I know we're both women but there's always adoption or donors, but right now I'm just overthinking. I haven't even done anything with her. Even though I kinda wish I had because I don't want my first time being with him. I just know if it happens I'm not going to be into it and the whole time I'm gonna be thinking about her not him. After a while of me laying down in my bed I hear a knock on the door,

Korra: come in

The door opens and I sit up on my bed

Mako: good morning beautiful

Korra( Rolls her eyes): what do you want Mako ?

Mako: What, I can't come and talk to my future wife?

Korra: you came in here for something so what is it?

Mako: so I was talking to your parents about the wedding and they decided the sooner the better.

Korra: what do you mean ?

Mako: yeah so tomorrow we're going to get married

Korra:...

Mako steps closer than whispers in my ear

Mako: then after the wedding we could have some fun

Korra: And how about if I don't want to?

Mako: oh trust me it's going to happen baby

Korra: we'll see about that

Mako: I guess we'll find out tomorrow after the wedding.Now you have to go out and find a beautiful wedding dress. While I go out and find a ring for your Beautiful hand so that people can know that you belong to me now.

Korra: whatever ...

Mako: you need to fix your attitude, you can't be acting like this in front of people. No for tomorrow that better be fixed.

Korra: well it's hard to act like you're in love with someone when you're truly not. You basically took me away from the person I love just to fill your own needs

Mako: you did this to yourself

Korra: How ? I wasn't the one who moved up the marriage!

Mako: but you are the one that stupidly fell in love.... especially that it's a girl.... You know for a fact your parents will never approve

Korra: I just wanted to be happy for a few years

Mako: you would've been happy but it would've killed you on the inside once you had to marry me. I did you a favor the sooner the better and a little hurt. What would've you done when she found out about us ? When were you gonna tell her that we were engaged?

Korra: I would've told her some point

Mako: and she would've broken up with you once you told her the truth

Korra: you don't know that

Mako: Korra, Who would stay with someone that is engaged ? I highly doubt that she would've wanted to waste her time with you. You were basically playing her, making her fall for you knowing that she couldn't really have you.

Korra: shut up Mako You know nothing about how I feel nor about how she feels

Mako: I don't ? I think I have a pretty clear idea. You know you're basically selfish, yourself because you loved her so much that you were willing to her in the long run. I mean you're basically hurting her right now aren't you? I bet she's back in Republic city worried about you. Wondering what happened and I'm pretty sure my brother told her already. Can you just imagine her crying? Thinking that the person she loves is back with her ex and is about to get married. Man I can't imagine how much you hurt her.

Korra( tears forming in her eyes):  GET OUT

Mako: that's what I thought

Korra( tears falling from her cheek) GET OUT MAKO

he finally walks out my room as I sit on my bed sobbing. The reason I was truly crying was because he was right. I was being selfish. I didn't think about her feelings. I didn't think about the future and how it would affect her. Even right now she has called me so many times and I haven't even answered any of her messages. I haven't even dared to look because I'm scared. She deserves the world and I ruined it. I just wanted to be happy for a few years, but didn't give her a say. Was I even going to tell her? I told him I was but words are easier said than done. I can't imagine how she would be feeling right now. We were supposed to meet up after school and have a nice cute date but he ruined it. God I really miss her right now. I just need her hugs, or her kisses. She is the only person on earth that makes me feel truly safe. She's the only one I can be my true self around without being judged. I guess I'm just upset because I will never see her again. I'll never get to kiss her again or hug her. I just wondered what she might be doing right now.