Falling for my Sensei •• Kakashi Hatake x OC

Nightmares

I stand there in the rain, letting myself become soaked. The rain was the perfect depiction for how I feel.

Heavy. Heavy with heartache.

My chest feels as if someone is crushing me.

The sadness.

The sadness is cutting off my ability to breathe. I know this scene all too well.

Kurenai's funeral.

I start to gasp for air through the tears that are flowing non stop down my face.

I look around for someone, anyone. Help me.

I see my sisters casket in front of me.
Kurenai.

I long to reach out and hold her. I want to touch her hand and feel her hug me once again. My sister, my everything. She can't be gone.

My chest feels as if it's on fire now and I'm clutching my throat trying desperately to get air.

I try to yell out to Kurenai.

Please... don't leave me.

As they begin to lower her into the ground, she suddenly opens up the casket and reaches for me.

Her eyes are begging me to help pull her out of the ground.

But I can't move, I can't get to her as she begins descending into the hole she's about to be buried in.

There's a pair of strong arms wrapped around me, holding me back.

They're hurting me and they continue to squeeze tighter. I try to scratch and claw and squirm my way out but it's useless.

I cry out as I stand there completely helpless and unable to help Kurenai.

No, no, no. NO!

The arms that were wrapped around me grab me by my shoulders and begin to shake me.

I look down at my sister and my heart shatters when I see her final plea for help as she disappears into the ground.

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I jolt awake and feel those arms on me, shaking me.

"No, no! Kurenai!"

I panic and try to get away.

"Akari! Akari. Stop, it's me. It's Kakashi. You were dreaming. It's okay!"

I stop trying to get away and immediately reach out for him.

I finally realize it wasn't real and that I'm now awake and currently sobbing into Kakashi's chest as I sit on his lap and he cradles me.

I feel his strong arms around my trembling body, holding me tight. He rests his cheek to my head softly shushing my anguished cries.

I nuzzle my head further into his chest and feel my breathing begin to steady and the tears start to slow.

I notice how tight my hand is gripping Kakashi's arm. I'm nearly digging my nails into him. I force myself to loosen my grip.

I realize he's without a shirt so I'm resting against his bare skin. He's so warm.

His hand caresses my head, gently running over my hair.

"Are you alright Ari?" He speaks barely above a whisper, with a voice so gentle you would think I was made of glass.

I nod my head in response.

"Do you want to tell me about it?" He asks but doesn't push. He reaches down and wipes the tears from my face.

"Kurenai..." I whimper.

"I couldn't protect her. She was calling for me, reaching out to me. And I- I couldn't get to her Kakashi. I couldn't- I, she-"

I begin to cry again.

He pulls me in closer wrapping an arm around my waist and one protectively around my head

"Okay, okay. Shh. I'm here. I'm here love." His words soothe me.

He softly kisses the top of my head.

"Do you want to lay back down?" He asks gently.

I nod my head.

He shifts me over off of his lap and I lay down curled up facing him. He starts to get up but I reach out and grip his arm.

"Please, stay. I don't want to be alone." I plead.

He immediately gets under the covers with me and draws me into his chest, putting his arms around me.

"Get some sleep Ari. I promise I'm right here."

And with that promise I feel sleep creep in on me again and my swollen eyelids become heavy.

Comfortably wrapped in Kakashi's arms, I let the wave of sleepiness win and fade away into the darkness.