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Corbyn Besson Imagine ♧

I rolled to the other side of my soft bed covering myself with my warm duvet not wanting to wake up from my everlasting sleep. slowly as I became more comfortable, I felt for once at ease with myslef, escaping from reality and all my problems that try to seep into my life. The steady silence that filled my room made me more relaxed ever then before, No light shining through just in the dark nothing to get me that's how I felt, Peace  with my emptyness.

Hours passed as I was sound asleep, but something woke me up abruptly making me groan in annoyance. I stood up feeling dizzy trying to steady my self as I rub my head a little. I slowly and steadily walk across my cool floors to my door making some of the light shine through to my room from the lit up house. I look up to see someone standing there, I was confused as I was still half asleep.

"Um hello", I say with my tired raspy voice, putting my hand over my eyes shielding it from the light.

"Y/n", the person says with worried feeled in their voice.

"C-Corbyn", I say now opening my door more to see the tall brown haired boy looking down at me with his beautiful blue/green eyes, But they weren't happy like usual they were feeled with worry.

"Y/n I've been trying to call you for the past 3 hours are you ok, Did something happen", Corbyn now says worridly walking into my black room quickly.

"Nothing has happen I've been asleep", I say putting my small lamp on as I close the door and sit back on my bed puttibg my head in my hands. I feel corbyn sit next to me as he puts his hand on my back softly and rubs it.

"Y-Y/n what's going on", He says chockinga a lottle on his words. I hate this I didn't want to make him worried, I didn't want to tell him but I have to even if it means making him worry more then ever I guess.

"Corbyn", I say looking up at him now. "I need to be honest with you, for the past year I've been dealing with depression I got Diagnosed 10 months ago. It's so hard to tell because sometimes I feel so alone and I don't know what to do. I feel so guilty for making you worry", I say letting out a shaky breath and tearing up.

"Y/n You never ever have to feel guilty for something that you can't help have, andvill always worry about you No matter what. But I'm here, I'm here to help you I'm here to help you get better I'm always going to be by your side no matter what. Your not alone princess, You'll never be alone", He says holding my hands softly. Looking into my eyes with his beautiful eyes.

I didn't know what to say but sob quielty and hug him tightly, Never wanting to let him go. He hugs me back tightly and rubs my back gently calming me from my sobs. We just spent the next few minutes in each other's arms enjoying the moment.

"Thank you corbyn, Thank you so much you really do make my day you really do", I say sniffling and looking at him.

"I would do anything to just see you smile Princess", He says smiling and rubbing some of my tears away from my cheek as he places a soft kiss on my forhead.

5 months later
We were seated in the lounge room of Corbyn, Jonah's and ebens house, the guys talking about something that made them erupt in laughter. I wasn't really listening as I sat in corbyns arms just staring at the tv but not really paying attention to what's playing, I was lost in my own thoughts.

Soon my thoughts were interpreted by corbyn waving his hand infront of my face to get my attention. I blinked a couple of times and turned to face him. Now the boys were all looking at me aswell as if I missed that something happend.

"Hey you ok", Corbyn now says rubbing my shoulder lightly. I kept looking at him and I didn't know what to say, I couldn't tell him that it has started again, that all my thoughts are racing though my mind driving me insane. I can't worry him again I just can't, I feel so guilty if I do.

The boys facial expressions turned into concern now, As corbyn shook me a little to get my attention again. I looked back at him again my eyes probabaly tired looking and my face more paler then usual. CORBYNS words echoed in my head and I couldn't handle it anymore so I just stood up and ran upstairs into a room and locked myslef in it. I could hear the boys voices calling my name and corbyn running up stairs callinf my name aswell.

I slid down the door and pulled my knees up to my chest as I hugged my legs as I stared into the car distance of the room, I realised that it was corbyns room. I haunted noticed but I was crying and I couldn't  stop it I just let the tears flow down my cheeks. After a couple of seconds I hear soft knock on the door and someone slidding down it aswell.

"Y/n", I heard corbyn say quietly. I didn't respond back but just let out quiet sobs, burying my head in my knees.

"Y/n, Princess. Please please tell me what's wrong I'm worried about you. I-is it happening again", Corbyn now says hearing his voice crack a little as he begins to tear up.

"I-, I didn't want to worry you" I say now letting out loud sobs.

"Open the door please", Corbyn says quietly and gently. I stand up slowly and unlock the door,opening it slowly. I look up and see corbyn through my teary eyes as he immediately engulfs me in a hug and thats when I lose it. All you could hear were my loud crys through out the house, I just held onto corbyb tiggtly never wanting to let him go.

"Its ok, it's ok, I'm here I'm not leaving ok", Corbyn cooed as his ran his hands though his hair gently to calm me down which it did slowly. I slowly look up at him with red teary eyes breathing in shakily, He slowly pushed some of my hair out of my face rubbing my cheeks with his thumb siflty as I closed my eyes under his touch. After a couple do seconds I slowly lean my head on his chest as he rubs my back gently, kissing my head a couple of times.

"I'm sorry,I'm sorry corbyn. I thought I was getting better but I guess i wasn't, It all came crushing down and and-", I sucked in a quick breath not wanting to cry again.

"Shhh why, Princess it's ok,don't have to explain yourself. I'm here ok and I'm not going anywhere, and I don't want you to feel like your alone", Corbyn says lifting my chin up to look him. "i promise you, I will help you get better no matter how long it takes ok",He now says.

once again I didn't know what to say, I think I would be lost without corbyn. I slowly I went on my tippy toes so that I was closer to corbyns face and kissed him soflty, He pulled me closer to him and deepend the kiss a little more.

I slowly pull off the kiss and look him in the eyes and smiles for the very first time today. Corbyn immediately smiles at me smiling as I began to speak. " Thank you, Corbyn. I don't know what I would do without you".

"I will always no matter what be here for you because I love you and I believe in you y/n, You are so strong", Corbyn says looking at me in the eyes smiling widley.

"I love you corbyn besson", I smily widley and kiss him once more. As he smiles widley into the kiss picking me up gently as I wrap my legs around his waist and spins us a little.

"Forever and always I'll be there for you", Corbyn says as his kisses me again passionalty.

In this moment I knew that things will get better for me because I had corbyn with me .

(Hello so this is my first imagine published in 2021. But also the topic i talk about in this story is very serious and alot of people suffer from mental illnesses and there has to be more awareness about. If there is anyone struggling with anything please talk to someone you trust or reach out to a help line, because your not alone. On a more positive note I'm very proud of the boys and there new album to the good times and the bad ones, they've come so far in their career and I can't wait for more music they release. I hope you enjoyed the imagine :)