The Future I Believe In

This Isn't Recovery

I'm falling into this damn relapse again...

I have no idea why it's being triggered. The need to cut is overwhelming.

And here I am in the middle of the night, trying to dream good dreams. But I know better than that.

I know it's gonna turn into a nightmare, maybe that's why insomnia is taking over again.

Insomnia takes over when I'm anxious, stressed, alone, afraid. I'm all of that right now.

I'm trying to keep my demons at bay, but I can't hush the overpowering voices from inside.

They want to be let out. Escape me and the life I live. They plead with me to let them ooze out in a red liquid form.

What's holding me back? Good question...

Once a cutter, always a cutter. Right?