The Future I Believe In

In My Dreams

Be the best of me.
Be the worst of me.
Be with me...

When I hear your name... I crumble into pieces. I feel so small.

Small as a crumb because I can't do anything but watch. Watch you fall in love with another girl.

When we talk... I glow and light up the whole room. I feel like the only girl in the world.

But...

I still dream about you. I hate myself for letting you leave. I'm crazy without you.

You are the best of me. I miss you so damn much it hurts. But yet I'm not crying...

I don't usually cry because it's a sign of weakness. I'm weak but I'm not going to show everybody how vulnerable I am without you.

If I can't cry then the best thing I can do is sit quietly. Watch everybody else falling in love...

I'll always love you cuz you were my first love... (ALS)