The Future I Believe In

Phobias

Every human being has fears. Some sort of phobia. Whether it's the darkness, lightning, or even spiders.

My biggest fear is imperfection. It's called Atelophobia.

It kind of sounds like I'm being vain about it. But it's not even like that. It's that I'm not good enough, and that I'm afraid of that.

Imperfection and not good enough are the same thing. But they are so different in some ways.

I do not want to be perfect in any way whatsoever. But I want to be enough for someone to love me.

I'm afraid to fall in love. Enough said haha. I think a lot of people are. But the thing is- I'm so open to people that I fall in love easy.

I fell in love when I was too young and at the wrong time. I keep thinking- maybe in another world this could actually work.

Maybe if I were older I'd be doing fine. If I met him when I was mature enough. But that's not how the world works.

I'm also afraid of spiders haha. Like "dufuk you doing? Think you own the place or somethin?" Every time I see a spider. Leave me alone damn spiders! Make your own little spider island and suck on some fly goo there! Haha

My level of done with them little Arachnids. Haha but until next time?