The Words Of The Moon (S1)

20. Spring Day

Symbol of Bluebell Flower : Eternal and lasting love; Humility

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I wander in the air like dust ...
If I were snowflakes, I would reach you sooner ...
But there is a question in my mind ...
Do you still like snow?

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Winter was over very soon and I neither saw the snow nor its goddess
They didn't sit next to me but I just felt them that rain on my head
Maybe that's why that in this year, staying under the rain is more beautiful than sitting next to snow and rain ...

Spring smells strange ...
The smell of my strangeness with myself ...
Perhaps the first beginning I remember of the pain is spring

It smells old ...
And it forces me to fall into a deep sleep so that I don't understand anything around me and when summer arrives, I come to myself and see that I am left alone with the summer holidays and a world of waiting for winter to arrive

How can spring mean freshness?
Everyone knows that in this season, the earth breathes new life ... it puts a new and beautiful cover on its head
And we start our new life beautifully in harmony with this season ...
But who knows ... Is it more beautiful than winter ???

Spring is full of show-offs, when everyone is showing their beautiful changes in a special way

It is full of nostalgia and restlessness, like the homeless people longing to have a family and the family longing for a real family

It is full of sacrifice, when they sacrifice themselves for the happiness of others and finally, the first steps ... or rather, the first kicks will start on their hearts

It is full of loneliness, when one of the members stays with the roof of the same house that until a few moments ago smelled of bluebell, because of the stubbornness of others ...

It is full of waiting, waiting for the rain to breathe a little of the damp smell of the soil

It is full of souvenir photos that only the desired photo isn't available ... is low ... or hidden forever

And in the end, it hurt that there was a family, but each wanted only his/her previous family, and spring never meant "joiner"

I spent the days in the heart of nature and the nights in the embrace of the darkness of the sky that despite the moon and its stars, I forgot that I was afraid of the darkness

Spring is approaching and when I sleep, I dream of group games ... a dream in which everyone fights with another to play with me ...
And at the end I sat in a corner and watched them play ...
Sometimes I didn't understand that their pain was me, or playing ...
They didn't want anyone to play with me except themselves, or they used me as an excuse to play!

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Terrible spring will come when I realized that my narcissistic winter goddess is made of snow and rain but has no sense of snow and rain ...

I'm tired from now on ...
I had heard about hibernation, but my dream is spring-summer

It isn't my fault that I fell asleep
I just don't know why my goddess has become kinder ... Every time I stare at a point in the sky I see her next to me when she caresses my head and makes me sleep but I just wanted to stay awake to find out where after winter she goes, what he does, and what she will do even if I was supposed to be silent on top of her until she wakes up

They said that my goddess would sleep until next autumn and that when autumn came, she would prepare the earth for winter

My goddess's sleep wasn't heavy, but when she slept, she literally cut off all communication with the world so that no one in her world would come and go ...
But when I saw her from behind the window, I heard her that she say a lot insults, and I said with a laugh : You could just close your eyes like you always do ...
And she always said : I would do it if there was anyone else