The Words Of The Moon (S1)

22. An Unknown Mass

A person may have different personalities at different stages of his/her life ...
This means that some are changeable

I was one of them ...
So let's go to a part of my hidden past :

I was a star and I wanted to light up the world ...
One day I saw a black hole and thought "Can I do something to get him out of his darkness?"
I approached it and for many years my only goal was to make it shine again
I wanted to overcome it but I couldn't ... on the other hand, he couldn't destroy me within himself
So I realized that the mass of both of us is the same
During these reactions, all the surrounding circuits were involved
And I was so engrossed in my goal that I didn't realize that a shift could be made
My mass was the same as its mass
So if I were him, I could save the surrounding circuits from destruction
Now I'm exactly where the black hole was
And all the circuits are moving in their place and in the same natural state as before
And they use my light
It was as if I had reached my goal ... instead of a black hole, I shone and gave light
But I was still not satisfied
I can still feel its dark force
I didn't want it to shine
I just wanted him, but this was against the law of nature, and whether I wanted to or not, we would be destroyed together
And that was just one aspect of life

In the next life, I decided to be stronger instead of bigger
Stronger than a rock
Now I am an earth with beautiful moon and stars around it

And this isn't the end of the story yet

The earth and its phenomena are still unknown
So I promised to discover it in dream and reality

There is every part of this world on earth, it isn't perfect, but in times of need, it will act like themselves, as if it were a mirror for them

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I told myself to go back to my another previous life now in the story
A spring and a leisure trip to the past but ... suddenly I saw strange changes

On a spring day when the darkness filled my whole being, when a black hole put a lot of pressure on a star, an unknown luminary mass was found in the distance
I didn't want to be approached, but it became balance stone between me and black hole
Despite him, I controlled the black hole
I didn't know what to call him
So I just stared at him because I couldn't retreat or get close to him ... he was a real balance

Like a neutron star, it was under a lot of internal pressure, and light lost a lot of energy as it passed through it ...
And I didn't believe ... so I put some of light of my moon and star into it, and in disbelief, the energy was running out ... so I was scared

I wanted him to have a short life with me like the blue and white B stars
And now why blue and white?
The color of it is like my acquaintances was blue but very light
And the color of our relationship was a whiteness full of peace and friendship
And these new color spectrums scare me because the color of my realm was purple

Like the Canopus star after Sirius (Shabahang) and in the absence of Sirius, he was with me ... more colorful than the days he didn't know me and like the procyon star was known as "loyal"

But it was scarce and not easy to find, so should I say I was lucky?
He stood near me at night ... too close and warm that every time I hid my other four souls behind me so that they wouldn't be destroyed ... he was very soft but I inadvertently put a heavy shield on myself ... I wasn't afraid of him ... I was confident
But I was scared because I came back to earth when I saw him ...
I lost my wings, my light, my endless energy

He told me every night that I am with you ... I will help you
But I just wanted to stay away from him every night because of the pain and weakness

He had come to enter my world, but my world wasn't a place for humans
It shattered my celestial equations
But I didn't know why I just don't destroy him ... like everyone else ...
It wasn't because of my love for him ... not at all ... I don't even worry about anyone

Maybe because he was a good companion for my mental confusion ... maybe because he was a me of the opposite sex
And I didn't want him to stay on the earth because of myself
I just wanted to take him back to heaven with me ...
Where to be disturbed ...
Where we don't have to be calm for each other ...

A dark place to find the light within us
Neither the light of hope, nor the light of the lamp of life ... the light like the light of a dying star
And just laugh at our madness before we die

Every night I would say to myself:
"Have I been in a dream until today?
And who was going to answer this question !?
Is anyone still behind me?"

I was afraid to look behind myself and then his light wouldn't let me find my moon
I was afraid to look at my earth from a distance and not see the blue halo of the winter goddess around me

But it was me and my madness ...
I looked behind me and saw that everything is in its usual place, but ... why don't they talk? Why I felt they were for heaven ... not me!
Why did the cold take over my whole being ... again? With the arrival of a new person ... hiding ... and finally being isolated
And why I inadvertently introduced the black hole to that scary unknown mass!

He said he must be so good that it is hard to understand him
And I used his goodness and I will use it to prove myself to everyone
The mirror that reflected the victory for the first time, and that victory was the reason to give new life to the sky again

I didn't want permission to enter the unknown in order to conquer and own it
It was a request to be hope for each other but not the hope of uniting, it is the hope of staying together

To unite in heaven means to disintegrate ... also for my earthly body
So if you want to stay in the sky, remember the boundaries, and if you want to go, go now that you are unknown
One day when I discover your existence, "your departure" will be to your detriment ... not me :)

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We are all "passers-by" in each others lives

The one who has stopped around us the most will be remembered more

But what about heaven?
Will the earth remember my stony body one day?!

What about the people?
What am I to you? ...