The Words Of The Moon (S1)

16. Gray

I was so drowned in the world inside me that when I came out of it, my purple world turned gray ...

The sky of it was lifeless and the land was burnt ...

There was no one ...
Just two person with smiles on their faces ...
I have not even seen myself in my life

They were kind ... Kinder than before
I had everything I wanted but I don't know why I could no longer touch and enjoy them

When I asked them why !?
They said the world is not a good place ... you lose
And they painted my world with their own color ...

To the point of them, gray was beautiful ... the color looked beautiful with all my clothes, but I still love the purple that never belonged to me

I begged again ...
I didn't try for my life ... I begged
But they gave a purple doll as a gift to a child ... 😕

And I was fascinated by the color of it
I became more greedy

I said :
"I want it too"

They said :
"does anyone want something like this at your age?"

I said :
"Am I not a child?
Don't you say I will never grow up?
If one day you find out I'm big, I'll give you the purple doll, but only if you give me back the purple sky of my life"

Maybe, I don't want anything
But I will take color from your existence ... even if my land is burned, I will take it from you
And I assure you that you will not survive that day

You say there is no one except you?
I will kill you and return to the dream
And I will integrate it with my life ...

I'm not alive to have anything to lose
My wandering soul will not stay in one place ...

Not in dreams ...
Not in life ...
And not in the next world ...

The next life will not be an exciting place for me when now that I am alive, I got the answer to all my mistakes and I was burned and hurt because of them

There will be no birth or death

I don't know when I am awake
When walking,
Sitting,
Eating,
Talking,
Studying and ...
In all this I see dream! ... or sometimes I come back to my life when I am in my dreams ...

And I had headaches and bleeding every moment of my life because of moving from one world to the next

* A secluded introvert who wanted nothing but his room *

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I had been tired for a long time ... and when I stood up, I was in the gray world again
I still couldn't see people, they were all the same color ...
I only saw those two people

They believed that gray was the color between black and white
It is the color of balance ... a balance of thoughts

And all those gray people were calm
Did this calmness indicate balance?

No ...

My position in front of those two people was just like a frog that once threw it in hot water and jumped out ... once again they put it in soft water and gradually increased the temperature of the water ... after taking some rest from the heat of the water, the frog was no longer alive ... it was cooked

That was gray
I stayed there for a long time and got used to staying there
My fatigue increased a thousandfold
And they knew what I was going to do in the end ... but just when I thought it was all over, they showed me the purple

My eyes were burning ... it hurt a lot
I wanted to laugh ...
See more ...
My heart is pounding ...
I was taken to my purple world

The colors of it were beautiful ...
The people are warm-hearted ...
Everyone was in turmoil

But I couldn't see it for a long time ...
I had a bad headache and my eyes burned more
I liked it but I wasn't used to it

That's what they wanted ... they just wanted me to say take me back to the gray world, but I didn't return ...
I was blind but I could feel the purple heat

I looked for the source of this heat, but it was as if the heat had spread everywhere

It wasn't like before
I had a missing person and she seemed to be everywhere but she wasn't here

I didn't see purple, but it have pain
The heat was uniform ... she was in pain too fom the monotony ... I just don't know, did it hurt from my monotony? or she was like me !

I sat in a corner again and drowned in my own ... there was talk of her presence everywhere, but I don't know why I couldn't feel her
I didn't lose my five senses .... did I?

I heard that she say she wouldn't return ... she said she has been like this for a long time and wanted to stay that way

The only thing we didn't forget was the night ... and now my gray moon was only purple at night, and it was only before we slept that I was neither in pain nor blind, because she was right next to me ... she was closer than the first days I saw her

Seconds before I fell asleep in the dark world, I saw that purple light ...
She promised me that if I didn't leave her as before, she would provide the conditions for herself to put aside the monotony of her world

Both she and I kept our word ... but one thing wasn't right ...
I saw her every night but it was as if she wasn't herself ...

When I came to myself, I saw those two people ... they said I wasn't there for a few minutes ... where was I !?

I was neither blind nor numb ...
Everything was in place and without any changes ...
And they were still smiling

I became carefree about everything because of the effect of gray ...
It doesn't important what I ate, what I wore, what I did, and something I will become in the future ...

I just know that one day I also had a purple that matched all my colors ... even in my gray world, the illusion of it doesn't leave me

One of my wish was to approach her, but she also had a balance point for herself
And since she couldn't move, she had to make images for me every night ... her ideas were real, but I preferred it to be far away to feel the warmth

It was better than an illusion in the gray world

I can be a good actor, right?
I can say that I was walking around for a few minutes when I wasn't there

I know they penetrated all my worlds for a long time; because those two are the goddess of gray ... the goddess of balance in my life ... and I am their child ...

I'm going to be grayer than before
And I will continue these gray conflicts until they are all mine

They have no way back but I still have 2 more of my seven souls that they didn't understand even when they entered my world :)

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