The Words Of The Moon (S1)

6. Start Repeating My Mistakes

I asked a person who understand me :
Why do we write our word !?
And she answered :
"Because our lost emotions or our unfulfilled emotions are expressed better that another."

Every time I wrote, I forgot my pain by it and I tried to not see the love terribly,
so I started from the beginning because I loved all of them and didn't wanted to lost them ...

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When I was a black wolf and he was a white bunny ...

The cute bunny went out of shrub and the little meadows ... he was looked at the black wolf in secret ... and then he back to the shrub again and hid himself ...

When the wolf was asleep, he would approach her ... and looked her nearly ... and smell her body ... went under her nech ... and fall into the wolf's trap ...

The wolf open her mouth and munch his delicious ear between her teath very little without heart him ...

The bunny escaped again from the wolf and came back to behind the shrub ...

Just when the game was over and the wolf asleep, bunny came near to the wolf and put himself into the wolf's black body ... and hid himself in the black hair of wolf's body ...

Sometimes the wolf licked him and sometimes enjoy of bunny's warm and soft corner of his chest and under his chin ...

There was one to believe and love her ...

But, all of the love are between these wolf's and bunny's games

It's the beginning of new season that the first of it is ok but then take everything from me ...

I knew these but ...

Maybe at that moment I didn't want my life to be monotonous ...

Maybe I was scared ...
I wanted to made my life exciting by suffering

My mind was speaking loudly and I thought that everyone around me could hear it ...

It hurt me ...
The blood came out of my mouth,
My nose ...
And it was couse of my headache

But was it worth it ...?
No ...

But I loved my blood and headache, because it made me powerful

Sometimes I wanted to hurt myself so I wouldn't fall in love ... to not love anymore
I can not say it was comfortable ...
It was hard to distance myself from those that I had been with them for 17 years

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There are 2 place that I enjoy of saying anything in there ...
First, "The Graveyard" and second "Your PV" ...

One day please go to graveyard and talk a lot till you burst
This time you know that how I enjoy of talking there ...
You have to talk on the "cold stone" infront of a person who died ...

You will know all similarities between your PV and The Graveyard ...
When you could hear me but couldn't tell me anything and just said that forgive you ...

I would to see your smile, your words, but I saw all these only when you were playing with me ...
This is that all af you need

But "I had to" play, to see them ...
I suffered to achieve all the good things ...

The pain from you was nothing ...

Was it ...?

Just before I was destroyed, you treat me well, they treat me well ...
After destroying I can't know who do it ... and when I know, I can't accept this, I can blame myself ...

Why did I open the way when I was known that the person is traitor ...? :)

I was saw again
My angle mom's tear ...
My sadism father, my weak body infront of a crazy person ...
My erotic love ...
My abnormal family ...
My Unfaithful friends

So, I found myself alone again ...
I lost my inner child ...
Lost my pure love

They didn't change and I had to change myself again

So I decided to be worse than before
This was very big for me

At that time I just could say please help me
Like a spirit that conquered by devil ...

Yeah,
I killed my own girl again and showed them my devil
My mother said to me that I never be in love ... :|

I didn't want to be a "Vendetta" but everything around me made me a metal wall that no one can break it ..
Everything that kills me, makes me feel alive

How do you say "Be yourself" when you are not yourself ...?

There were a lot night when I slept, I saw in my dream that I kill everyone who know them in every place

Every time when I want you, my soul want to kill all the people around me
So, I want to kill you to save people from my soul ...

Because the people and their words are always around us but, you were the one who always influenced by their words and became more frustrated and darker than past

You like cocaine ... enjoyable but pulling me in the depth of you existance and there isn't other way to return from you ...

You are here to clean my sins ... while you become all my sins

One day, the killers were the most innocent people on the earth ...

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Hi all

Forgive me to not being able to upload this sooner😢

Luv u alllllll💜💜💜