Red lights (soukoku)

mothers concerns

A layer of murty liquid glossed over chuuya's eyes that forced him to rub away the blurred sight.he couldn't help but feel anxious,he knew he wanted this but he didn't know how the sensation of dying felt like.corruption only made him drained out and sting but this time dazai couldn't be there to stop the feeling surging through him body.

His hands and feet began to sweat nevertheless he stood up to write his last pages of his diary.chuuya smacked the table hoping his hand was going to land on the book.where was it?

He realised that if someone had taken it would be a disaster.he sighed and reassured himself,it was his last day the only way it would turn out mad before he dies is if koyo found it.that meant one in a hundred or thousands.

Chuuya bit his lip and walked out of the office to the kitchen.Somehow that was the cleanest place in the whole place.he walked to the kitchen table ,to his surprise there was already a meal for him.it was wrapped in plastic cling wrap and had a little note on top.

Chuuya eat this all or i'm going to force you :)i made it this morning and i don't care if you like it or not because you have a mission today <3

From your amazing, talented, loving mother

He chuckled a little and unwrapped the cellophane off the food.it was full british breakfast.sausages,eggs,toast,beans,bacon,mushrooms,hash browns and tomatoes.he was shocked that koyo would make this much and then it hits him.she found the book.it made his stomach twist and turn but he still ate the food because reading the note made his spine shiver especially because somehow she can manipulate saying sweet words but be aggressive to get what she wants at the same time.

The food was amazing: the caramelised bacon and the melted butter on the toast put a smile on his face.the only thing he didn't like was the tomatoes,he never liked them and it was too soft and sweet.he took and deep breathe and pinched his nose to stop chuuya tasting the favour.

When he was done finishing breakfast and feeling like a stuffed pig ,he washed the dish and decided to go to town for the last time.he walked around Yokohama going to his favourite places like the large cherry blossom tree in a yield he knew,chuuya sat down underneath the tree remembering that one time when his drunk self almost used his ability to move the tree out the ground and bring it home.luckily he got distracted by a bird and pet it.

Chuuya got embarrassed and grunted, hiding his face with his hands.he walked to his favourite cafe shop and ordered a caramel mocha and a fruit sando with strawberries and mango. Chuuya smiled like a little child while eating his food.he whipped the cream off his mouth then paid before leaving to the last location.

It was now 6:17pm and the mission starts at 7.

Chuuya rode on his motorcycle to lupin and ordered a cup of 1989 petrus, an extremely expensive drink but he didn't want to get drunk since he was going to have a mission in a few minutes.chuuya drank and paid,leaving to go to the port mafia.

There he was greeted but mori and koyo.

Koyo......

She walked up to chuuya and then shouted at him.

"CHUUYA NAKAHARA I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU COULD DO THIS!KILLING YOURSELF AND THAT BOOK I FOUND!"

"Uhhh..."

"I JUST GOT YOU BACK AND YOU ARE GOING TO LEAVE FOREVER!I AM YOUR MOTHER NAKAHARA!"

"Mum i'm sorry but i'm doing this"

She pulled chuuya to the side and whispered "chuuya i sent your diary to dazai,if it comes on time he can read it and save you''

Chuuya's eyes widened and began to sweat, "you sent my diary to him!did you even read everything"

Koyo teared up and spoke "yes,i did i'm so sorry that nurse did that to you"

"But osamu dazai will read if i'm alive or dead!"

"If that keeps you alive i'm willing to do it"

Chuuya sighed and everyone in the port mafia drove off to the land point.

.......

Dazai was making fun of kunikida by stealing his glasses and dancing in front of him while everyone was getting ready for the fight.when suddenly atsushi walked over to him with a packaged, "hey dazai,i think this is for you",handing it over.

"Me?I don't remember ordering something oh well gimme gimme!"dazai opened the package and to his surprise it was a black leather book with a small sticky note.

"Uh atsushi i have to go to the toilet i'll be back",he told atsushi while leaving the toilet.

When he arrived,dazai read the small note.

'Osamu dazai this is from koyo and you need to stop chuuya.he is my son and i can't let him die,this is the diary he had when he was in the hospital please read it and understand that chuuya need to right now'

Hospital?diary?chuuya?

He flipped through and pages skimmed through since he only had a small amount of time before Yukichi Fukuzawa takes everyone to fight.he was dumbfounded and apart of his heart ached for chuuya.he couldn't help but feel symphony for him and a burning sensation of anger and trigger knowing a nurse would touch him.

"Dazai! We're leaving"

He shoved the book in his pocket and left the toilet and went to the car.

"Finally you're here, let's go,"Atsushi said gesturing a sign to come over.

.....

Both parties drove to the location and met with each other standing in their positions.

Chuuya and dazai stared at their eyes taped open,chuuya looked away hoping that dazai didn't see the book yet but dazai knew almost everything and couldn't help feel nervous.

Mori stepped forward and did the same with fukuzawa.

"See you in hell..."