Where the Wind Blows

Kabanata 34

Kabanata 34

Everything felt surreal to me. Parang kailan lang ay panay pa ang pigil sa sarili kong nararamdaman. I know how wrong for me to feel this love. I thought, moving forward is the best way for me to be better, that I can finally say that I am less selfish than I am yesterday. Pero hindi naman pala 'yon ang basehan lalo pa't katulad ko ay hindi rin nagbago ang pagmamahal ni Nathan para sa akin.

We may have started on the wrong page, I'll make sure that we will make it right this time. It is not too late for us to show how much we value each other.

Nathan had been busy lately but it isn't an excuse for him not to allot time for me. He always send me a message and always reminding me to eat on time. I also look forward every night because we talk to each other thru videocall or phonecall. Nasurpresa pa ako kahapon dahil dinalaw niya ako rito sa Casa Soriano. He said that he wanted to be with me on his free time kahit na hindi ko naman siya naasikaso dahil sa trabahong ginagawa ko.

"Can I have a moment with my daughter?"

I looked at the door and I saw my mother having her loving smile. She slowly walked towards me and then sat on the chair in front of my desk.

I returned her smile with one. "Of course. Hindi mo naman po kailangan pang humingi ng permiso sa akin."

"You're so busy lately, anak. Don't dedicate most of your time working just like your dad. You also needed some time for yourself."

My eyes teared up a bit because of what she said. Yumuko na lamang ako nang bahagya upang hindi na iyon mapansin pa ni mommy.

"I heard you are going to Costa Estrella. Is it true?"

I lifted my head slowly and bit my lower lip before I nodded.

"Kasama mo si Nathan?"

I managed to nod my head again even if my throat went dry. I didn't told my parents about me and Nathan. Naghahanap pa nga ako ng tamang tiempo para lang makapagpaalam sa kanila. Paano niya kaya nalaman ang tungkol doon?

My eyebrows met when my mother laugh.

"So hindi nga nagsisinungaling ang daddy mo. Nagkakamabutihan na kayong muli ng ex-fiancé mo."

"How? How did dad know?"

"Ang sabi niya sa akin ay pinuntahan daw siya ni Nathan upang ipagpaalam ka sa napag-usapan niyong dalawa na bumisita sa Costa Estrella."

My cheeks flushed. "He doesn't have to do that. We are no longer teenagers."

"But me and your dad appreciate what Nathan did. He showed respect to your father," she said. "By the way, kailan ang kasal nang makapagplano na kami ni Griselda?"

My cheeks became redder from the way it was earlier. "Mom!"

She looked at me with mischievous eyes. "What?"

"Nathan is not yet my boyfriend!"

She gaped before she cover it with her hand. "Really?"

Napailing naman ako sa naging reaksyon ni mommy. That is one of the reason kaya hindi ko pa sinasabi sa kanilang dalawa ni daddy ang tungkol sa amin ni Nathan.

Yes, we admiitted to ourselves and confessed to each other our feelings but Nathan and I are still not in a relationship. We haven't talk about it. Maybe we'll do once we return to his hometown.

My lips curled into a smile the moment I remember that place.

I left my friends in there. I wonder if they still remember me or treated me as one. Nawalan ako ng contacts sa kanila at hindi na nag-abala pang magkaroon. Not because I want to cut off my communication with them, but because I needed to let go all the things that have connection with Nathan in which I thought is helping me to move on back then.