They want to tell me what's right, what's wrong, what's black, and what's white..... but they don't know you like I do. They don't understand that under this facade is a young boy who wants to be loved, even if he doesn't know what love is himself.
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Author's Note: Since there's not a lot of scenes of the lecture itself I'm gonna make some stuff up. I'm trying to make sure the story follows the show as much as possible when needed but a lot of this stuff is not gonna be from the show since Yiying obviously isn't real and Xue Yang wasn't a prominent character until everyone was a bit older.
Conversations between only two people will not have name labels but conversations with three or more people will.
Also I remember at some point saying I would use the Youtube translations for the conversations, I take that back I'm using the Netflix subtitles lol. The Netflix subtitles are more grammatically correct compared to the YouTube ones. The only thing that bugs me is the translation of the way the characters address each other, but since I know those phrases I'll just change them when I need to.
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It was the second day of Gusu's lecture. Xiao Ying was tired because she didn't get much sleep, but she was happy. Xue Yang promised to meet her every night he was in Caiyi Town! The girl got ready in a cheery mood. She smiled as she brushed her hair, styling it into a half up half down style and sticking the pin she was gifted yesterday in her hair. (reference picture above) Putting on her white shoes to match her clean, crisp white robes, she headed out for breakfast with her brothers.
As Xiao Ying entered the room where the three ate together, she smiled at her brothers who were already there. "Good morning."
"Good morning little sister, you look better today," said Xichen.
"I'm feeling better today."
"That's good to know."
The three proceeded to eat in silence as the Lan principles state that when you eat, focus on your food, don't be picky, and don't leave any leftovers. The three finished and had some extra time before today's lecture began, so Xiao Ying decided to go visit her parents.
The walk there was not quiet like usual, she was greeted by many disciples along the way considering multiple clans were residing in Gusu as of now. Once she finally reached her parents' grave, escaping the chaos, she sat down in front of them not sure what to say.
"Where do I even start? I wish you guys could answer me, instead of it feeling like I'm just a manic talking to thin air." she paused to listen to the breeze fly by.
"You guys must be upset at me for sneaking out again last night. I know it's against the rules of Lan Clan, but I had to see him! He came back. How many times have I come to you guys in the past years crying that I would never see him again, and yet yesterday I was sneaking out to meet him like when I was younger. I felt like I was that little girl who was so eager to help that little boy with a broken finger again from all those years ago. Speaking of the past, how do you guys think Xingchen gege is doing? I haven't seen him in so long, I wish I could return to the mountain again, just once. Just once so I can check on my brothers and sisters, and Baoshan Sanren. I spent my first few years of life with them, you would think that I had forgotten it by now since we don't retain many memories from younger ages, but I remember everything. I just want to know if it's still the same. Xingchen said we would meet again in the real world eventually, I wish I knew when that is. The night Uncle Lan came to bring me back to Gusu, Xingchen said our bracelets would glow to let each other know the other is nearby, it hasn't glown once these past ten years. I have to go now, the lecture will start soon. I can't be part of the Lan Clan and show up late to my own clan's lecture."
