Forever Together

Chapter 32

Joon was on the phone with Bang PD, and then he looked at the rest of the Hyung line and told them to get in the car because they were going to the office. Stasia looked at them, all seven of them, "I'm so sorry. I know I should have told you, but I thought they'd give up when they realized that it didn't affect me at all."

Jin crouched down in front of her, "I know it's asking a lot with how upset you are right now, but please take care of them until we get back. They need you more than you know. All of us do." Then he kissed her forehead and left with the others.

 She waved Jungkook over and he sat in front of her. She took his hand, "Kookie, it... it wasn't your fault, not at all. Please don't ever blame yourself." 

He gave her a weak smile and laid his head in her lap. So there she was, sitting in the middle of the living room with Kook's head in her lap, Tae on her left shoulder, and Jimin on her right with Ami in his lap. They stayed that way for a long time. 

Ami fell asleep in Jimin's arms, and she just leaned her head on his. Stasia was pretty sure that Kook fell asleep in her lap because she was playing with his hair—that usually knocks him out. She reached up to touch Tae's face; it was finally dry. She started running her finger up and down his outer ear. This was her happy place. She and her daughter were safe and surrounded by people who loved them. 

When the Hyungs got back, they found everyone but Stasia asleep in the middle of the floor. She put her finger to her lips so they'd be quiet and mouthed, "Help me, please." 

Joon picked up Tae, Hobi grabbed Jimin, Yoongi got Ami, and Jin grabbed Jungkook. They took them to her room and put the boys in her bed and Ami in her crib. 

When they got back to the living room, she was sitting on the couch. Jin came and grabbed her hand. "We talked to the Big Hit staff, so now any package addressed to you will be thoroughly inspected. If it's anything like what we just saw, it will be handled. We don't want you seeing any more of this nonsense."

It was a relief, but the air in the room still felt stifling. She stood up and made her excuses, "I uh, I guess I'll go get changed. I'll sleep on the couch since the little ones are all in my room."

As she turned to walk off, Jin grabbed her hand again. " Sleep in my room. We need to talk anyway."

Stasia nodded her head and walked to his room. She heard them talking as she walked away.

"Fix this, Hyungie, I can't, I can't lose them. She's everything to me, and I love that little girl more than life itself," Yoongi said with a crack in his voice.

"I know you can do this; you are the practical one," said Joon.

"I know you love her as much as we do, so please for all of us, get her to stay," Hobi whispered.

Stasia opened Jin's closet and grabbed a T-shirt to sleep in. Then she went to the bathroom to brush her teeth and shower. When she got out, Jin was waiting for her with a towel. He had already changed for bed. "I'm really sorry, Jin. I don't want to leave. I love y'all too much, but I can't hurt you guys anymore."

Jin looked at her with love and anger, "If you think you won't hurt us by leaving, then clearly you don't know just how much we actually love you. Do you think any of us can go a day without seeing you or Ami? Think of Yoongi; he's been there since the second she was born. He hasn't missed anything. He's the one that taught us how to be fathers to her, and you want to take her away from him? Could you look me in the eyes and say you can fly back to the States and never see any of us again?"

"I... I." She dropped to the floor in her towel. Jin walked over and scooped her up. He dried her hair and put his shirt on her. Then he carried her to his bed and laid her down under the blankets. He walked to his desk and turned on the baby monitor so they could hear and see Ami in case she needed her in the middle of the night. Then he laid down and held her gently. After 20 minutes, his breath was even.

She rolled over to look at him. Stasia gently placed her hand on his cheek so she wouldn't wake him up. "No, I couldn't; if I left you guys, I'm not sure I would survive. After Noah, you seven became my lifeline. You saved me and continue to save me every day, even when I try to convince myself that I'm fine. I'm nothing without you. I couldn't take Ami away either; I see how much you love her and how great you are with her."

The next second, his mouth was on hers. "I thought you were asleep," she said a tad breathlessly. Jin didn't say a word; he just made love to her. He was slow and gentle, and when he reached his peak, she asked, "Oppa, are you okay? Are you still mad at me?"

"I was never mad at you; I was worried about losing you and my daughter. When you were kidnapped, Stasia, I... I thought I was going to die. I didn't know if I was ever going to see you again, but I had Ami to worry about, too. And if the worst happens, how would I tell her it was my fault that she didn't have a mother? It's already my fault that she didn't get to meet her biological dad. If you hadn't been at our concert, you'd both be alive, raising her together. Stasia, I love you, we all do, and we love Ami more than we can put into words. Don't leave us, ever." 

She just held him, rocking him back and forth, "I love you, all of you." She whispered over and over.