Cause I'm a fool for you

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Harry's POV

The doctor just remind me I got only 2 hours to be with Zayn. He will leave me soon. I haven't stop crying for more than 4 hours. How could he leave me and the babies?

I brought his guitar and sing a song for him.

Shut the door
Turn the light off
I wanna be with you
I wanna feel your love
I wanna lay beside you
And I couldn't hide this
Even though I try

Heartbeats harder
Time escape me
Trembling hands touch skin
And it's makes this harder
And the tears stream down my face

If we could only have this life for one for day
If we could only turn back time
You know I'll be your life,your voice,your reason to be
My love,my heart is breathing for this
Moment in time
I'll find the words to say
Before you leave me today

Close the door
Throw the key
Don't wanna be reminded
Don't wanna be seen
Don't wanna be without you
My judgments clouded
Like tonights skies

Hands are silent
Voice's numb
Try to scream out, my lungs
It makes this harder
And the tears stream down my face

If we could only have this life for one more day
If we could only turn back time
You know I'll be your life, your voice, your reason to be
My love, my heart is breathing for this
Moment, in time
I'll find the words to say
Before you leave me today

Flashing lights in my mind
Going back to the time
Playing games in the street
Kicking balls at my feet
There's a numb in my toes
Standing close to the edge
There's a pile of my clothes
At the end of your bed
As I feel myself fall
Make a joke of it all

You know I'll be your life, your voice, your reason to be
My love, my heart is breathing for this
Moment, in time
I'll find the words to say
Before you leave me today
You know I'll be your life, your voice, your reason to be
My love, my heart is breathing for this
Moment, in time
I'll find the words to say
Before you leave me today

I finish the song with tears streaming my face. This is doing no good. I realize how fast he's going to leave me. Doctors have removed the oxygen supplier. I kissed his lips,with so much emotions and of course love. He didn't move at all. I join in the bed with him. I lay hugging him side and close my eyes. I could feel his heartbeat. So slow and it's too hard to hear them. I whispered I'm sorry again and again.

I heard the door open and I don't care whoever it is.

"Harry? You shouldn't be in bed with  Zayn." A familiar voice said. Of course it's Niall.

"I don't wanna miss any single moment anymore Ni. Let me enjoy this small moment" I said cluthing on Zayn tightly.

"But-" he started but Liam stopped him.

"We'll wait outside Harry" Liam said and leave with Niall.

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"Mr.Styles,we got 10 minutes more. Can you get off from the bed?" One of the doctor said.

"No. I won't leave this place. I only been sitting for 10 minutes and you said only 10 minutes left. Bullshit"

"Mr.Styles,you've been with your husband more than 2 hour."

"No,you can't fool me"

The other doctor and nurses took me away. I cried to stay but they didn't listen to me. After push me out of the room, I ran to the toilet. I have a big plan going on in my head.

I took all the item and out it around the sink. I put a paper in my front pocket so that they will notice the paper. I brought a big knife. I held it around my neck. I count to three to cut my neck but fear held me back.

C'mon,Styles. Zayn gonna leave and there won't be any reason for you to stay.

I check the time and it's 5 more minutes to Zayn die. I gulped down my saliva and put the knife around my neck. Just before I cut myself,someone barged in the toilet.

"NO! LET ME GO WITH ZAYN!"

They bring me to a hospital bed and hold my arms and legs. One of the doctor give me anastasia. I can't fight it so end up sleeping.

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When I woke up,I found Niall looking at me. He was giving me a sad smile. I cried again and again.

"I could've die with Zayn. We would live together. You guys ruined it for me. I hate you all" I said no energy to shout.

"About that...uhm. We-we got something to tell. It-its" he was interrupted again by Liam.

"Babe,I told you to not tell him first." He whispered but I can hear him.

"Okay idiots. I could hear you whisper and what you shouldn't tell me? I already know Zayn is died and and wait, don't tell me my babies are dying too" I said eyes wide.

"We'll see you later. Take care Harry" they said and leave the place.

What the fuck is wrong with them? They're making me nervous. I try to move from the bed but the doctors tied me up. I groaned to myself regretting what I did. All I could think is how Zayn is probably covered in a white linen with no heartbeat. My river falls started to wet my face.

We're just two ghosts standing in the place of you and me

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Fuck this,fuck this,fuck this,fuck everyone. I have nothing to say. Stay safe 🤧

~Love J 💛💚

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