maze runner imagines.

the brightest stars: newt.

a collection of newt's favorite moments with you:

maybe you don't remember it like i do.
but watching you sleep so soundly,
wrapped in my arms,
was nothing short of precious.
i watched the soft snores escape past your lips and fade into the night,
and i knew in that moment that the rest of my life would be spent with you.
even after you started drooling,
i couldn't find a single flaw in you.
you woke up that next morning,
claiming you don't drool and that "you shouldn't have been watching me sleep!"
but can you blame me?
seeing you in every light i can is truly a blessing.
knowing that you trust me well enough,
even in your most vulnerable moments,
sparks the purest form of ecstasy in me.
if the glade weren't so cruel at times,
i might think about spending the rest of our lives here.
as long as you're by my side,
i know i'd be content.
—
do you remember the day we spent in the tall grass of the glade,
dancing around with one another until our feet were aching?
i remember the sun beaming against your skin and turning you into the most beautiful shade of gold.
i could have sworn you were an angel sent from the highest point of heaven in that moment.
you hummed a tune and kept us in rhythm,
our hands intertwined while we danced the night away.
i could have spent forever with you in that moment.
just the two of us,
existing in no ones world but our own.
your sweet scent remained in the air for as long as we stood,
the taste of it numbing everything inside of me.
i had always known you were amazing, y/n,
but i had never admired someone like i did then.
all i could do was stare at you,
loving the grace that circled your eyes.
we laughed loudly once i had become too distracted and trampled over your toes.
i blushed furiously,
but you only brushed a lock of hair from my eyes and caressed the skin against my cheek.
and with a soft voice,
you spoke,
"i love you, newt."
and that had been the first time those words had left either of our lips.
it was just as exhilarating as i always imagined it to be.
—
our first big argument was brutal.
we had always managed through the smalls ones,
ones that began with my jealousy and ended with warmed hearts.
but there was that one i was worried we wouldn't come back from.
it happened when ben had to be banished.
you cried and shouted,
saying that it was too inhumane to treat a human like that.
especially one of our own.
i tried,
time and time again,
to explain that ben wasn't himself anymore.
i knew you couldn't accept that.
ben was like an older brother to you;
the father figure you sought.
and while ben was wise beyond his years and as funny as one could be,
he wasn't the same anymore.
his griever sting had not only threatened thomas's life,
but we were all in danger.
later that night,
you wouldn't even look at me.
you shied away from my touch,
and refused to look into my eyes.
it made my heart sink with each passing second.
"y/n, what did you want me to do?! i'm a keeper!"
"you should have done something....you could have saved him."
"no, i couldn't. and you know that. you're-you're being unfair."
you finally got to your feet and faced me,
though it wasn't the expression i was hoping for.
your eyes were bloodshot and stained with tears.
"you killed the only family i have!"
you yelled,
the tip of your index finger digging into the pit of my chest.
"i have nobody now!"
"you have me, y/n! you'll always have me!"
i yelled for the first time since we met.
it was a painful, rugged sentence that escaped from my throat.
i couldn't tell if the grief was blinding you,
or you truly felt like you had nobody in this glade.
your lip trembled at the words,
and i knew you were seeking comfort.
my words had finally registered.
i pulled you close to my chest,
where you sobbed loudly and gripped my shirt for balance.
your knees finally gave out on you,
but i was there to hold you up.
i ran my hand down your back and tried to stop myself from crying along with you.
when i sat down to the floor,
having you in my lap and lying on my chest,
i didn't let my hands stop soothing you for even a second.
you looked up at me after moments of quiet,
and let your fingers run down my cheek.
"i'm sorry, newt."
"don't be, love. i know."
you promised me that you would never stop loving me.
and in turn,
i promised the same thing. 
we had each other until the day of our last breaths.
i was scared, y/n,
i was.
the screaming match we endured struck a sense of worry in me,
that we'd fail make it through.
but we held each other close and let our hearts heal in all the broken pieces.
it was then i knew we could come back from anything.
—
i couldn't tell what hurt more.
the sadness in your eyes or the ache in my bones.
you had been the one to find my body hanging from the ceiling,
though i so desperately didn't want it to be.
if i'm honest,
i wasn't thinking it through.
all i know is that the maze had driven me completely mad,
to the point of no return.
when i woke up again,
i felt a surge of disappointment.
until your honeyed voice and soft hands laid to mine.
it was then i felt utterly stupid to have done such a thing.
to hurt you,
to leave you alone when i promised the opposite,
to throw away our futures.
i half expected you to spit at me and curse me until the sun went down.
but you held me like you'd never held me before.
you kept my head to your chest,
where i could feel the beating of your healthy heart,
and you kept a palm to my chest to feel our synchronized heartbeats.
"newt?"
you whispered after hours of sitting alone with me.
"hm?"
"..why?"
i had been dreading the question.
but i owed you an explanation after all.
"i don't know, y/n...i just..i can't do this anymore."
"do-do what?"
"live here. i can't get them out of my head. they're consuming me."
you kissed the top of my head and rubbed circles against my arm.
"i will get us out, newt. okay?"
i had never heard such determination in your tone.
i was left with no other choice but to believe you.
and though it was more than anything i could have ever asked for,
you graciously helped me back to health.
i was left with a permanent limp,
finding a bit of insecurity in it,
but you kissed me like you'd always done and reminded me that there was no waver in our love;
we were forever.
—
i remember a theory you told me one night.
it was nearly three am,
but you turned to face me and traced figures against my bare skin.
i could see the set in your eyebrows that showed you were thinking deeply.
"what's on your mind, love?"
"what do you think happens when we die?"
"dunno, honestly. what do you think?"
"i think we become stars."
despite the seriousness in your expression,
i couldn't help but chuckle.
"seriously?"
"yes, shank. listen. when we die, our souls leave the flesh we consume now and will return to its natural state; the stars. we become twinkling, bright orbs in the night sky that give people their direction, and give them light. we return to the beauty we've always been inside."
when you finished,
i felt a swell of infatuation inside of me.
the words that left your lips were always beautiful,
but in this moment,
all i could think of was just how wise you really were.
"i think you might be right, my love."
"really? you think so?"
"mhm. you've sold me on it. we return to stars."
you picked your head up and laid a soft, tender kiss to my lips that lingered there even well after you pulled away.
my belief in stars had been changed positively ever since.
—
do you remember the look in your eyes when i told you i was scared to turn into a crank?
i didn't worry about dying,
i was only worried about turning into a monster i knew you wouldn't love.
couldn't love,
i should say.
i was destined to become an abomination the longer the disease ate away at my brain.
i remember the panic that turned your eyes nearly black.
you held me close and told me you would never let that happen.
that you would fight tooth and nail to keep us safe.
"when we reach the safe haven, we'll have us our own little house and we'll live happily. right?"
i smiled and nodded weakly.
"yeah, we will."
"look at me. you cannot talk like that. you won't leave me, newt. i can't..i can't survive without you."
"darling, you can do anything without me."
i cupped your cheek with my hand and rubbed circles against your cheekbone.
"i don't want to, newt. that's the thing."
no matter how tiring it would be,
i knew i had to fight to live.
for you,
for us,
for our future.
i planted a soft kiss to your lips in hopes of reassuring you,
and thanked you for your efforts to stay alive.
oh, y/n,
there is nobody else in this life i would rather fight the cruelest of threats with.
you are the person i'm destined to love,
and there is no amount of disease that can stop that.
—
finally, y/n, we'd made it.
our safe haven.
though it wasn't what we quite expected.
what thomas would describe as the beach,
we were left in the middle of the city.
our hands remained locked while our hearts slowed.
my body went cold and i shivered,
but the thought of your existence beside me was enough to keep me at bay.
"n-newt?"
"yes, my love?"
you smiled at the sky that was littered with stars,
and used the last of your strength to squeeze my hand.
"i love you."
"i love you,"
i returned.
our breaths were becoming too shallow to speak anymore,
but words couldn't quite explain what we were feeling anyway.
our connected hands were enough to speak every word we couldn't verbalize.
i could feel your heart slowing at the same time mine was.
our lives had been spent loving each other in its most rare, pure form.
some aren't so lucky to experience such a thing,
but we were, y/n.
we were each other's missing piece,
other half,
the love of each other's lives.
there was not a day that went by wasn't spent loving you.
we laughed together until our stomachs hurt,
we cried together until we ran out of tears,
and we loved so deeply,
that we feared our hearts would burst one day.
i remember feeling peace in this moment.
i didn't fear death,
instead i welcomed it.
you were there with me,
and together,
our eyes closed forever.

we turned into the most beautiful, brightest stars,
y/n.
just like you said.
~~~
an
don't ask me what my deal is with newt & stars 🧍🏼‍♀️
i couldn't tell you,
it just happens that way 🤝
anyways,
i hope you're all staying safe and healthy!
remember that you're loved and you're never alone
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