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it's been 4 months since i got the role as Finley fargo. so much has happened since then. i don't even know where to begin. cobra kai got moved to netflix and has done so well since then. our views have tripled and netflix is pushing season three's release date to january of 2021.

i got another apartment in LA and moved out of the c4 house. and with working in YVR at least five days a week and not filming cobra kai jacob and i have... been having some problems. we don't see each other like basically ever and when we talk it's just fighting over not being able to see each other. it's all my fault too. this job has taken up so much of my time and before i even considered going out for this role i assumed during CK's break jacob and i would spend it all together. i think he thought the same thing so i felt so bad we could barley see each other

I'm currently in my hotel room in YVR. it's a friday night and i am so tired. the only reason i would go back to LA this weekend is if jacob wanted to hang out with me but the last time i talked to him today we were just fighting. i decided to call him cause if i was gonna go back i needed to book a flight now

"hey" i say as i hear him pick up the phone

"uh hey whose this?" a girls voice says

"um ada, jacobs girlfriend" i say annoyed at whoever this was

"oh, it's serena" she says in a bitchy tone knowing i knew who she was and that i wouldn't be happy she was with him

"who?" i say knowing it'd piss her off

"his ex" she says her confidence clearly faded for a split second

"oh i forgot about you, he never talked about you after he met me" i say

"well I'm here with him now... and your where?" she says

i don't respond i just hang up and immediately call xolo

"hey adz hows Vancouver" he asks

"is serena at your house with j" i blurt out

"i- yeah but it isn't anything to worry about. were all hanging out, she brought one of her friends that we used to know. don't worry ada" xolo says

"do you not think that's weird? him hanging out with his ex while he's supposed to be with me?" i ask

"well your not exactly here ada" xolo says

theres no way this is happening right now. jacob first and now xolo too? i get they're best buds but i felt like i didn't know either of them

"okay bye" i say quickly as i hangup. I'm going back to LA. theres no way I'm just gonna sit in my hotel room and be worried

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i hope off my flight and don't even bother going back to my house. my car was still in the parking lot from when i left so i got inside and drove to the boys house.

"hey" i say opening their front door but i only see cooper, xolo, and the girl xolo told me about over the phone

"where jacob?" i ask not wanting to know the answer

"him and serena are just talking in his room. they haven't really talked since the break up so they're clearing the air" the girl says

i walk past the living room and head straight for jacob. i open the door and see serena sitting on his bed in tears and jacob kneeling infront of her. his hands placed over hers

"babe hey" he says as he stands up trying to play off the extremely vulnerable situation i just walked in on

"what the hells going on" i say as i walk up to the two

"wh- no babe it isn't anything. we were just... talking about everything you know?" he says and i don't respond. i just look between the two of them

"seems intense" i say

"come on babe... i just wanted closure. both of us" he says

"i- j can i talk to you alone" i say

"yeah yeah come on" he says pulling me out the door

"what the hell jacob" i say as we stand in xolo's room

"babe i swear it isn't" he says but i cut him off

"you looked like you still love her" i say sadly as my whole body deflates. I'm so fucking tired and my hearts been broken like this before and I'm just tired of fighting

"i- ada" he says

"i know weve been fighting a lot lately. and I'm sorry we aren't having the break we thought we were gonna have but your an actor too jacob. you have to understand this is how our lives go sometimes. we don't see the people we love a lot and we work our asses off because our jobs are everything. we spend night after night alone in a giant hotel room wondering if this is all worth it. and when i started cobra kai i came home to LA to my boyfriend cheating on me. a-and i thought this time would be different. even if you werent cheating on me theres clearly something you aren't telling me so tell me" i say

"i texted her after our first big fight... it wasn't to get a hookup or to cheat on you because i love you ada i really do. i just... needed advice and the only person who knows what I'm like in a relationship is her. i wanted her to tell me if i was being an ass or if i was being rational" he says but i knew that wasn't it. at least not all of it

"what else" i say

"ada" he says softly

"tell me jacob" i say

"we ended up just talking about our relationship and looking back on old memories... tonights the first night I've actually seen her i swear... but I'd be lying if i said i haven't wanted to give her and i a second chance" he says sadly clearly disappointed in himself

"wanted? or want?" i ask

"w-want" he says a tear slipping from his eye

"that's all i needed to know. thanks, for your honesty... i guess" i say heading towards the door

"ada wait come on" he says pulling me back

"i don't know what I'm supposed to say jacob. you just fucking said you wanna give you and her another shot. what am i supposed to do? beg for you to pick me? i don't do that, i don't beg people to stay" i say getting angrier by the second. i really just wanted to walk out of here looking calm and mature but it's clear that's not going to happen.

"i just think... it's not our time" he says sighing

"fine by me i don't date liars" i say turning around

"hey i didn't lie to you ada. i didn't cheat on you. nothing happened between serena and i" he says

"you promised you wouldn't fucking hurt me. and you did. that's the definition of a lie, jacob" i say

"ada just stay, lets talk about all this. please just don't go home angry" he says

"I'm not angry. I'm fine." i say taking a deep breath as i head out the door. i see serena still sitting in jacobs bed and i roll my eyes walking past the door and back to the living room.

"ada what happened?" xolo says as he sees my tear stained eyes

"nothing. I'm fine. I'm going home I'll see you around" i say not looking any of them in the eye

i get in my car and head home to do who knows what