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the next morning I'm woken up with ethan sitting on the side of my bed watching the new hollywood fix video. i listened closely at everything we said to make sure nothing could be used against us

"alright well i guess ada cambell found herself a new boo" fletcher says as he ends the video recording me and ethan driving away

"graysons going to kill you" i say

"i don't really care" ethan says tossing his phone aside curling up beside me. we sit like this for a couple of minutes before i finally say something

"what are we even doing" i say sighing as i turn towards him

"i don't know... but i don't want it to stop. i think i could see myself... really liking you" he says wrapping his arms around my waist pulling me closer

"i feel the same. just... i really want to take whatever were doing slow you know? just have fun, no labels" i say

"i completely agree" he says kissing my forehead. i think i was sending him a lot of mixed signals, he was sending me a bunch but i don't think either of us cared.

we layed in bed for a while but got interrupted by his phone ringing. he didn't even have to tell me, i already knew who it was

"what" ethan says as he answers the phone

"ada? really ethan?" i hear grayson scream from the other side of the phone

"kristina? really grayson?" he says in a mocking tone

"i said i was sorry" grayson says

"cool, well I'm not sorry for treating ada the way she deserves" ethan says making me blush a bit

" you just had to pick the one girl i actually cared about" grayson says

"don't give me that bullshit grayson. you treated ada like complete shit, and for what? tyson?" ethan says

"whatever man just stay away from my ex's E" grayson says a little bit calmer

"at least I'm not fucking her while you two were still dating. i had the decency to wait until you broke her heart" ethan says

"ethan i don't know if ada can hear me right now, but we both know your only hooking up with her or whatever to get back at me. and i know you know, ada isnt one of those girls to hook up with someone and not catch feelings. yeah i hurt ada and i regret it, and i know you're pissed i hurt her too. so do us all a favor and don't hurt her again okay?" grayson says. honestly i kind of believed him. I'm not one of those girls who can't do that whole friends with benefits thing, or hook up, without... catching feelings. but ethan can do that easily and in the long run it's just going to ruin me.

"he's right E" i say after he hangs up

"what?"

"i think we both know whatever were doing right now is going to end in more heart break" i say

"i guess" he says throwing himself back on the bed

"but i love ya E. always will" i say smiling

"i love you more ada" he says pulling me in for a hug

ethan left shortly after that. we had fun but it wasn't right what we were doing. we were both in love with other people. i know who i want know and I'm not giving up.