AS1: RISK [✔]

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Chapter 39
Zari

"Are you sure that your parents are okay with you being here instead at your house?"

He laughed because I already asked him this numerous times. Pagkabalik nya kasi rito sa Pilipinas ay kaagad syang dumiresto rito sa condo ko. Hindi man lang sya pumunta sa bahay nila ng parents nya.

He's cooking for our dinner. He's wearing my apron and it makes him cuter than ever. Si Milo naman ay ginugulo sya habang nagluluto. Matagal na kasi silang nagkita kaya na-miss sya ni Milo. Malaki na rin si Milo kaya nagulat sya kanina nang makita ito.

He looks at me while holding a turning spatula. "I already texted them. They are excited instead because you and I are okay now."

"Are we?" I raised a brow, teasing him.

He smirks at me. "You cried earlier while hugging me," namula ang pisngi ko dahil sa sinabi at mas namula ito nang kumindat sya sa akin para asarin ako. "You missed me so much, do you?"

"Shut up!" nahihiyang sabi ko sa kanya na kaagad nya lang namang tinawanan.

What he said is true. I cried for almost an hour while hugging him. I just missed him so much. During those times when he's in Florida...I keep on stopping myself from going there also just to see him.

I just missed him so bad.

But...my fear of taking risks is still here. I keep on picturing myself crying again like how I did before. I keep on picturing myself going through that phase again...and it made me so scared.

But...I can't afford to push him away also.

"How have you been while I'm still in Florida?" he asked while we were eating dinner.

Uminom muna ako ng tubig bago sumagot. "I've been busier so I wasn't that kinda sad like what you thought I would be," inaasar nya kasi ako na palagi akong umiiyak kada gabi kasi miss ko na sya.

Mahina syang natawa dahil sa sinabi ko. "Good for you," he smiled softly at me before reaching my hand on the top of the table so he could hold it. "Do you want to be with me again?"

Natahimik ako sa tanong nya. I love him...but I'm scared. Hindi ko magawa na sagutin sya. My love for him is too deep but love isn't the only thing that is important when it comes to relationships. Trust is also needed as sincere forgiveness.

He may have a reason for hurting me before...but my heart still keeps on disregarding it. Because what they did still gave me wounds and scars. I keep on telling myself that my reasons are nonsense but at the end of the day, I always understand that I had the right to act like this.

Because I was wounded by them.

"Akala ko okay na kayo! Pumunta si Gin kaagad sayo, diba? Bakit parang wala namang nangyari sa inyo? Akala ko magiging kayo na ulit!"

Napairap ako sa mga sinasabi ni Suji ngayon sa opisina ko. It's been weeks already since Gin went to their home. I just told him the truth...that I still love him, but I still need time to heal. Naintindihan nya naman iyon kaya sinabi nya kaagad na hihintayin nya lang ako hanggang maging okay na ako.

"I want to take things slow," sabi ko kay Suji.

She looks at me like I was spitting nonsense. "For what?"

"Basta," sabi ko, malapit nang mainis sa kanya.

Umupo sya sa upuan na nasa tapat ng desk ko. Tinignan nya ako nang mariin kaya napailing ako. "Just tell me the reason so I could help you."

"I can handle this myself," sabi ko nang hindi sya tinitignan.

Tumayo sya para makaupo sa desk ko. She's already in front of me. She's staring at me intensely. "Why are you being like this? I told you not to be like that. Ayokong kimkimin mo lahat."