SYMPATHY FOR THE DEVIL (COMPLETED)

CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR (Cute)

Thoughts are the shadows of our feelings. Always darker, emptier and simple. - Friedrich Nietzsche

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Martin's POV

Sinusubukan kong isuot ang polo na ibinigay ni Elodie. Napangiwi ako kasi sa manggas pa lang ay hindi na magkasya sa akin. Masyadong maliit. Naitukod ko ang dalawang kamay ko sa lavatory at tiningnan ang sarili ko sa salamin. Tiningnan ko ang putok ko sa kilay na kanina lang ay hinaplos ni Elodie. Her face looking at me with so much concern made my heart melt. That was the first time I felt someone worry about me because she knew what I've been through. I knew when Sesi was my wife that she cares about me because I was her husband, but she doesn't know what I did. She doesn't know what I was going through because most of time, we are not together. I married her because I thought she was going to help me to live like a normal person. But it wasn't enough. Being married to her was not enough because I was still looking for something.

Napailing ako at napabuga ng hangin. Sesi was better off with Yosh. I didn't feel any regrets of what I did. Sila talaga ang bagay. I knew my best friend would take care of my family, and I would never, never in my existence will mess up their relationship.

But Elodie.

She was my redemption. She was the reminder that once in my life I was a good person because I saved her. And I am going to help her even the cost of it was the new life that I am having right now.

Napapikit ako at napabuga ng hangin. Shit. I needed to stop thinking about what she did. It was just a simple gesture. She was taking care of me, worried because that's the most normal thing to feel by a normal person. Normal lang iyon.

Fuck you, Ted. Don't put any malice on what she did. She doesn't even like you.

I know. I know. Para akong tanga na nakikipagtalo sa sarili ko. I had been with Elodie for months. I knew for a fact that she's pretty, sexy. Smart too. Pinagbatehan ko pa nga siya and I was a fucking fool to do that. Hindi ko lang talaga napigil. Pero talagang inaalis ko ang malisya pagdating sa kanya dahil alam ko ang nangyari sa kanya. Alam ko ang pinagdaanan niya. Ang tanging mahalaga lang sa kanya ay kung paano makakapaghiganti sa mga taong nanakit sa kanya. Kaya dapat kong tanggalin sa sarili ko ang kung ano man na nabubuhay na damdamin doon.

Alam kong magiging partners lang kami ni Elodie pagdating sa paghihiganti sa mga Baldomero pero bukod pa doon, sigurado akong wala na. Sigurado akong pagkatapos nito ay magpapatuloy na siya sa buhay niya. I won't matter to her anymore. I will be just a part of her dark memory that soon, she needed to forget.

Nakarinig ako na may nag-buzz. Agad kong dinampot ang relo ko at tiningnan ang oras. Pasado alas-dose na ng hatinggabi. May bisita pa si Elodie nang ganitong oras?

Paulit-ulit ang buzz. Halatang makulit ang kung sino man ang nandoon.

Lumapit ako sa pinto at narinig ko ang boses ni Elodie. Halatang iritable ang boses. Napakunot noo ako dahil boses lalaki ang narinig ko.

Who could this be? Sabi ni Elodie wala siyang boyfriend. Pero bakit may lalaking susulpot dito sa unit niya sa disoras ng gabi.

Wala akong kakilos-kilos habang nakikinig pa rin sa usapan ng nasa labas. Hanggang sa marinig ko ang lalaki na nagsalita tungkol sa duguang t-shirt.

Mahina akong napamura. Naiwan ko nga pala ang t-shirt ko doon na puno ng bahid ng dugo. Fuck. Who the fuck was that guy? Bakit napakapakialamero? Pati ang bagay na iyon ay itinatanong pa kay Elodie. Paano niya lulusutan iyon?